Tagged: littlemisssunshine

13
Mar
2021

UGHS ALL AROUND

Mostly, I am tired or stressed (work) or bored or lethargic. I am tired of life during a pandemic as so many people are, but I have no right to complain, really. It mostly means that I am struggling with not having anything to write about. We finished watching Six Feet Under last night, and I had read somewhere that the show’s finale was considered one of the best season finales ever. I couldn’t figure out how that could be possible, in the episodes leading up to it, but they were right: it was great. Closure all around, in every...

27
Feb
2021

PANDEMICLY

All week long, I’m thinking: “write a post, write a post, write a post” and then it’s the weekend again and the posts were only written in my head. I don’t want to sit down in front of the computer in the evenings to write a post when I’m sitting in front of the computer all day long for work. It’s a conundrum. My brother called this morning and we talked for longer than usual, due to the fact that his family left to go for a walk without him at the beginning of the phone call. He’s longing for...

18
Feb
2021

DESIGN WOES, DESIGN GOES

I’m really angry and upset about something I can’t talk about here. And not just because I try to keep the awful stuff out of this space. There are other people involved and once again, 2020 just keeps on giving…this feeling that the awfulness of last year is spilling over and into and causing this year to brim over with awfulness, too. GAH. I’ve taken tomorrow off, not because of the awful thing that is consuming all my mental space, but because I have to use up 20 of my vacation days before April 1st, although if I don’t, I...

12
Feb
2021

CONSTANT VERGE

Lately, I feel like I’m living with all my nerves on the outside of my skin. Everything is overwhelming, or else I’m too sensitive. The smallest things make me feel like crying and that makes me feel stupid and small myself. If I could curl up and sleep all day, I think I would, but I don’t. I get up, I shower and dress. I work a full day’s work, I eat lunch and dinner and when the sun is shining I add to my daily treadmill 20 with a brisk walk around the neighborhood. I read every day, I...

25
Jan
2021

UP AND THEN WAY DOWN

Last week started on such a high, with the anticipation of the inauguration coming like a rainbow of angel choirs singing and the sun coming up. It’s been SUCH a freaking relief to look FORWARD to reading the news, checking the headlines, skimming social media. I heart everything! I care! I thumbs you up! And I cannot overstate what a relief it has been to have the former 45 silenced and to have silence not only from him but about him. He can’t disappear fast enough, as far as I’m concerned. Anders and I watched the inauguration, and I got...

07
Jan
2021

AS THE YEARS GO BY, THEY TAKE THEIR TOLL ON YOU*

It’s been snowing all day, that thin corn snow that doesn’t stick. I didn’t actually check the temperature but it had to have been right at freezing, because even though it was cold enough to snow, it all just melted as soon as it touched down. Now, however, in the early evening, it’s STILL snowing and now, finally, there is a thin blanket of white. We’ve only had one other night of snow (maybe two? I can’t remember) but it’s always been gone by midday the day after. I hope it will stick around a little and brighten things up....

25
Nov
2020

FOCUS ON THE FUTURE

Choir practices Massages 2020 work kickoff AWC lunches AWC monthly meetings Charlie Caper at Victoriateatern Martin’s visit home Bookworms Choir weekend Work trips Valborg bonfire & BBQ Lundaloppet Midsommer Visits with Anders’ mom Independence Day BBQ My grandmother’s decline and funeral Summer vacation in the States Movie nights Crayfish party Flyinge loppis Karin’s university start Dinners with friends Wreathmaking workshop Funny Girl at Malmö Opera Friendsgiving Julbord AWC media sale That’s the short list of cancelled events and activities so far this year. I’m thinking about Thanksgiving since it’s tomorrow, in the US, and normally, tomorrow, I would be meeting...

17
Nov
2020

YOU CAN SPEAK YOUR MIND BUT NOT ON MY TIME

I don’t care about lots of things that other people seem to care a ridiculous amount about. Princess Diana, for example. Don’t care. The 4th season of The Crown was just released and suddenly my social media is full of her again. Don’t care about royal families in general, for the most part, and the current one in the UK has less interest for me than most. I don’t care what they’re doing, who they’re marrying, where they’re vacationing, and whether or not they’re happy in their roles. I watched the first three seasons out of curiosity and thought they...

03
Nov
2020

WOKE

Distracting myself is a good excuse for writing here, no? It’s election night and for over a week my FB and Instagram feeds have been filled with images of people with masks and I voted stickers, and the word VOTE spelled out in flowers, paper, paint, rocks, you name it. I have permission from my boss to “come in” late to work tomorrow in the event that I stay up super late…which is kind of stupid, considering the time difference and the fact that we probably won’t know who has won before tomorrow at the EARLIEST. People keep asking me...

01
Nov
2020

ON AND OFF AGAIN

I didn’t set out on purpose to take a month-long break from writing here, but halfway though the month, even though I was constantly thinking about writing something, I sort of gave up and went with the flow. I suppose I still felt like I had nothing much to write about, even though that is precisely what writing here is FOR: random thoughts. But this past year, as for everyone, has really taken its toll, and that’s despite everything in my life being FINE. I am fine. We’re fine. Everything here is fine. But I still feel tired, fatigued, exhausted....

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