Tagged: thisisjusttosay

20
Nov
2023

REALLY RANDOM

Lately, I keep evaluating songs I’m listening to on whether I’d like to have them played at my funeral or not. Would they send the appropriate message to my grieving friends and family? Are they “pretty” or “mellow” or “thoughtful” enough? Appropriate: Make it Good by Ruut Inappropriate: Gone Baby Gone by Boz Scaggs Appropriate: When You Come Back Down by Nickel Creek Inappropriate: There She Goes by The La’s Appropriate: As I Lay Me Down by Sophie B. Hawkins Inappropriate: Fortunately Gone by The Breeders This morning, I woke up with a disturbing dream still very fresh in my...

13
Nov
2023

MOVING THROUGH MORTALITY

Tomorrow we’re going to the funeral of one of Anders’ friends from high school. He was younger than me. 2 years younger, almost exactly the same age as my sister. He was diagnosed with cancer in April and given 4 months, though he held out for nearly 6. I’ve known him and his wife for a little over 27 years. Their kids are the same ages as ours. The four kids have known each other their entire lives. We’ve gone to New Year’s parties with them, crayfish parties nearly every year, graduation parties, big birthday parties for one or another...

02
Nov
2023

THE WEIGHT OF AIR

Ugh, trying to lose weight is such a pain, especially when you like food. I keep bouncing up and down on the same half kilo, even though I’m pretty happy that I’ve managed to get down 6 kilos (5.5, no 6, no 5.5, no 6, no…SIGH) since the end of the summer, without trying super hard. I read somewhere that most people think that losing weight means you are evacuating it when you go to the bathroom, but the truth is that most of it is BREATHED OUT. Isn’t that weird? How can fat turn to CARBON DIOXIDE? If you...

25
Sep
2023

DOPAMINE FOR A DULLARD

Are you good at procrastinating? I’m usually pretty bad at it. Oh, I can be lazy as all get out, and I can waste time like a champion, but I’m not that good at actually procrastinating. At least about things other than working on losing weight or saying no to cookies. Which, come to think of it, are the same thing. I can spend a good hour or two playing iPad games or scrolling through Instagram posts and reels, but if I really have things to do, especially if I’ve written them down in a list, then I’m pretty good...

26
Jun
2023

LOOK UP TO THE SKIES AND SEE

I can hear thunder in the distance and it’s dripping a bit of rain, though it’s going to have to be quite a bit more before I can leave off watering the vegetables today. I was planning to go walking with Lisel at 5 but we’ve cancelled, which is a bummer. Apparently, the summer weather that’s been non-stop since beginning of May is finally coming to an end and we can expect rain and thunderstorms this week. I wonder if we’ll have the same all the way up north or not. Looks like Karin is getting rained on in her...

18
Jun
2023

SUNDAY MUSINGS

Nearly the entire month of June has gotten away from me, and it’s already the 18th and I am the lamest blogger ever. No wonder everyone has stopped blogging. Real life is so intrusive. There’s always so much to be done! When did we ever find the time before? It’s 3.5 days until vacation, and I can’t wait. Even though we’ll be gone for most of it, I’m still looking forward to not working. Even if not working is also stressful, because I know how much my team will be stressed out, and I know how insanely busy I will...

31
May
2023

NO GOOD MOVIE IS TOO LONG AND NO BAD MOVIE IS SHORT ENOUGH*

Karin and I sat down to watch The Notebook a couple of weeks ago, but we only made it halfway before we stopped because of either it being too late in the evening to continue, or something came up, or Karin had to leave, or whatever it was. I knew already then that I wasn’t really interested in watching the rest of it, partly because they basically give the entire plot away at the beginning, and partly because I didn’t particularly care about ANY of the characters, most of whom were cardboard throwaways, OR what was going to happen to...

29
May
2023

ALONELIER

How much time do you spend alone? Are you lonely when you’re alone? I don’t know why I’m even asking YOU, the hypothetical reader, when I know it’s basically 3 people who sporadically read this blog, and while asking a direct question might elicit a comment, my question is mostly rhetorical. I’m alone a LOT. Martin has moved out, Anders is traveling all the time for work, Karin is home occasionally, but not every night, not by a long shot, even though she technically lives here, and while I am out some evenings and have plans and do things, I’m...

14
Oct
2022

TOO MUCH TO SEE STRAIGHT

Sometimes I wonder why I bother writing here. I know I say it’s for me, for posterity, etc., but when you are blogging and no one ever comments, it’s a little unmotivating. I suppose it’s my own fault, since I don’t a) market this blog at all or, b) write regularly enough. My family says they read it, but I don’t think anyone else does. And man, I’ve been lame lately. I blame work. The crazy at work. I’ve been back for 4 weeks after vacation and it’s been non-stop crazy and super stress. I really hope it starts leveling...

18
Sep
2022

MRI-AY-AY

I met with the spine doctor last Tuesday to discuss the results of my latest MRI. I’m documenting it here so I have an easy way to go back and see what’s been going on, in regards to my pinched nerve. I had the MRI right before we went to Bornholm. According to Dr. Kai, the degeneration has not progressed much since 2017 (when the previous MRI was done), but he said that was to be expected since it had already progressed so far. It’s basically the same, bone on bone between a couple of vertebrae. After 4 weeks off...

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