Tagged: beinglizardek

24
Oct
2021

BUSY BEE

I guess I am not the only one not blogging. I just went back through my friends feed for the past several weeks and only a small handful of posts were actual, written, blog posts from friends. All the rest were feeds from art blogs, comic strips I used to read, and Post Secret. I suppose that means that no one is reading either, so I shouldn’t feel too guilty about my lack of posting, but I mostly feel guilty for myself. How am I supposed to fill up a year with memories if I keep forgetting to write about...

03
Oct
2021

SUNDAY MUSING

It’s another lazy-ish Sunday. I woke up at 6:30, feel back asleep until 8:30 and then around 9:30 actually stopped dozing and woke up enough to put on my glasses and read in bed for another hour or so. All I’ve done of note so far is water plants and put some clothes away (apart from showering, dressing and eating). It’s another cloudy, rainy day. We went yesterday, despite the weather, to meet Debbie and family on a boat tour of Malmö along the canal, featuring a surprisingly hard quiz about Malmö. I’ve done the tour boat trips for tourists...

22
Sep
2021

FLEXIBLE AND FORWARD-MOVING

Today is the autumnal solstice. It’s been a week of really cold temps, steady winds, rain, and cloud cover, but today was lovely. Warm and sunny and just what I needed. Today’s the last day this week working from home, and my shoulders are up around my ears. Work is intense as always and we’re already feeling the fall crunch and that’s before we’ve really gotten started on monster project season. Last night, I prepped dinner, chopping all the veggies, pressing garlic and setting the table. Anders was out in the garage getting Karin’s car prepped as he was going...

19
Aug
2021

STUCK IN THE MIDDLE

I’m still in the middle of vacation, home, doing not much of anything. I have another week after this, but I’m honestly debating whether to go back to work a little early. I’ve had things to do, don’t get me wrong, but this past week I’ve been “trapped” at home without a car most days and it’s been pretty much raining non-stop for longer than that. It makes me question how I’ll be able to handle retirement in 10 years. Mind you, I am NOT complaining about too much vacation, rather I am thinking I need to fill my days...

11
Aug
2021

EXPRESSING YOUR ESSENTIAL NATURE

There are so many ways to define yourself. How do you do it? Is it your socio-economic grouping (lower-class, middle-class, upper-middle-class)? Is it your age range, as defined by so many questionnaires and surveys (Under 12 years old, 12-17, 18-24, 25-34, 35-44, 45-54, 55-64, 65-74, 75 years or older)? Is it your ethnicity (White, Hispanic or Latino, Black or African American, Native American or American Indian, Asian / Pacific Islander, Other)? Is it the generational decade you were born into (baby boomer, gen x, millennial, gen z)? Is it your marital status? Your level of education? Your employment status? Your...

08
Aug
2021

SO HARD

One week of vacation down and it was a busy one. This weekend, however, we had no plans. Anders finished putting up the blinds on the porch and we’ve eaten dinner out there a couple of times. He only has one week left, and he says he’s at least 2 projects behind. But I’m hoping he’ll go kayaking at least once this coming week if the weather stays nice. Being on vacation for this long is weird. I have actually jumped in and done a couple of work-related things but nothing that took any amount of time. I was looking...

31
Jul
2021

WHAT TIME IS IT? VACATION TIME!

It’s the last day of July and the first day of my summer vacation. I have 4 full weeks stretching out in front of me. There are already several things booked on the calendar (next week is pretty full) and my to-do list is quite long, though at least half of it is actually for Anders to do. 😀 Last year I took 3 weeks off in August but I worked an entire week’s worth of it anyway, as there was so much to do. I’m going to try very hard NOT to do that again. I learned my lesson,...

02
Jul
2021

HOLES AND HOPES

I find myself checking my head constantly, without thinking about it. My hands in my hair, sifting through the strands, feeling the lumps and landscape of my skull like an amateur phrenologist. I am trying unconsciously to tell if there is more damage from my fall than I thought, or maybe I’m trying to smooth it out, to make sure there are no actual holes in my skull, as if my fingers could softly and carefully rub the bone back together. There are 22 bones in the human skull, 14 of which make up your face. The bones of the...

06
Jun
2021

FOUR-LEAF CLOVERS*

As long as I can remember, I’ve been blessed with best friends. Before we moved to Europe, and I started 7th grade, my memory is hazy regarding friends. I suspect I mostly played with my brother and sister (when we weren’t fighting). Though I do remember riding bikes with a girl named Judy when we lived in Nebraska, I don’t remember what she looked like or anything else about her. The year before we moved to Belgium, we lived for a year in Montgomery, Alabama and my sister was best friends with Jackie, another girl that lived in the same...

28
May
2021

LITTLE GOOD THINGS

I keep feeling like the accumulation of stress, worry, and bad news is going to bury me, and yet, I keep getting up in the morning: to work, to walk, to eat, to read. I keep going, despite the blows that come mentally, emotionally, physically. It makes me wonder where my breaking point is. What if I don’t have one? That’s an interesting thought. Sometimes I get teary-eyed and bust out crying from the stress of it all, and sometimes I just go sit outside on the deck, in the sunshine and I lean my head back and close my...