The willows are pollarded The fields are plowed The trees and bushes are no longer see-through The buds are opening The butterflies are fluttering The equinox is upon us The light is lengthening The windows are filthy And I can see every single damn dust bunny in the entire house! It’s here!
Anders coming home on Friday Going to a play ON A BOAT in Copenhagen this weekend with my BFFs Debbie & Camilla Getting actual permanent high-speed Internet …one more day…I CAN’T WAIT Anders putting the final touches on the new storage room, so I can empty/organize the attic and get new bookshelves for the computer room Annual AWC Media Sale (even though I almost never buy anything, since all the best books are the ones I donated, haha!) Lilacs, duh. PIE NIGHT Getting some more colleagues on our team at work Finally getting that damn IUD replacement over with Midsummer...
I know what my problem is. I keep focusing on the negative. The negative LOOMS and it’s ZOOMS IN, and it kind of takes over if you let it. it’s really, really easy to let it, I’ve found. So, today, I spent some time focusing on the positive. I saw a huge hawk with beautiful markings on the undersides of his wings hovering in the air over the road as we drove by. I saw the look of terrified delight on Martin’s face when he realized he was up to 60 on a country road when we were out practice...
I’m awfully tired right now, sad and pretty down. My freelance colleague, Lena, died of cancer on Sunday night and it’s affected the whole team. We’re all really dragging and it’s hard to concentrate at work or at home, or even while driving in between. We sent her a card last Friday and all I keep thinking about is that I didn’t get to say goodbye to her and she didn’t even get our card in time, and it just sucks. Work is insane as well, which doesn’t help. I come home and power-walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes...
This past week was pretty horrible. We found out that one of our freelancers, a wonderfully kind woman, whom I’ve been working with for the nearly 10 years I’ve been at my company, is very ill with cancer. It’s the second time for her…she beat breast cancer several years ago, but the cancer this time is worse, metastasized and in her skeleton and stomach. Apparently they won’t do chemo or radiation, which brings one to the conclusion that the doctors don’t think it will help and that it’s not worth going through. Yesterday was the day I was scheduled for...
This doesn’t happen to me so much outside of my own home, but it’s starting to drive me crazy. When I walk into the house, I immediately see the things that are out of place. The things that need to be cleaned, or put away. Today when I came home, the first thing I notice when I walk into the laundry room (aside from the blinking red light on the washing machine announcing that the load I put on a timer when I left this morning is done) is that Martin’s backpack is on the counter, along with his hat...
It’s the first day of a new month! That means INTERNET! YAY! But even better, Anders has made the call and placed an order for us to get hooked back up to broadband…no more mobile internet for us, wheee! I’m not sure when that will be in place, but as long as it is, I do not care. I haven’t been able to do anything online for WEEKS. And in the middle of all that, my friend Russell and I were trying to get our BIG Birthday Trip figured out and he basically had to do all the work because...
This living like it’s 1999-with-dial-up-modem thing for HALF THE MONTH is for the birds.
I actually feel pretty recharged at the end of this weekend, which is nice, even though a lot has been going on. I’ve had some good sleep and good relaxation spells as well. Anders came home with flowers for me (pale pale pink roses), a Pandora bead for my bracelet and chocolates. Made me feel kind of bad about the little box of candy he and the kids got 🙂 We were supposed to go to Debbie’s home for Valentine’s Dinner on Friday but late in the day her husband, who’d been feeling worse all day, decided he couldn’t manage....
I’ve got crazyworkbrain. Can’t stop thinking about it, stressing, etc. GAH. I wake up at 4:30 a.m. or 5:30 a.m. or 6:00 a.m. and can’t get back to sleep because crazyworkbrain starts right up. No matter how fast we work or how much we do, the amount that is left to do is the same or more when we leave each day. *sigh* Good thing I love my job, eh? On the plus side, (haaa!) I’m also obsessed with Treadmill Time. Every day when I come home, it’s the first thing I do. 20 minutes minimum and usually up to...