Tagged: littlemisssunshine

Work is insane, it’s too dark out, it’s raining, the kids are on vacation for a week, we’re dog-sitting and I forgot we have to carve the pumpkin tonight. I miss summer and I can’t wait for vacation.

It’s SO hot here. I swear, I’m swooning with heat. Not to mention sweltering, swelling, and just plain swearing. I hate being this hot, though I know that I shouldn’t complain that it’s nice weather and the sun is shining, and honestly I’m not complaining about that part, but the humidity: AUGH. I remember when we moved back to the States after 6 years in Europe, in the summer of 1982. We came from Germany, where there was NO humidity to speak of, to Maryland, where the humidity was over 100%. I literally thought I was going to die every...

I’m buried in tax reports, bank account statements, Google results for “how to fill out these $#%! forms” and confusion. My regular tax return is due June 15th and will take me about 10 minutes to complete. The other forms, going back SIX years, are due June 30th (OF 1997, 1998, 1999, 2000, 2001, 2002, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, 2009, 2010 and 2011), and they may very well take me the rest of my life to figure out. The information that they require is intrusive, outrageous, complicated and very likely unconstitutional. I cannot afford to pay a tax...

In the past 8 days my to-do list has been quite ferocious. One might almost say it has been doing ME. I haven’t been tackling one or two items at a time…I’ve been coping with them pretty much all at once: sore throat head cold stomach flu fever chills aching diarrhea pneumonia (!) hacking cough and as if that list weren’t enough…menstruation Apparently, I even multi-task ILLNESS.

It’s really hard for me to climb on top of my quivering pile of motivation to write something when I’m angry or upset or sad or stressed out. Taking deep breaths doesn’t really help. Straightening my back and consciously lowering my shoulders only works so long until the next time, minutes or hours later, when I realize I’m hunching or slumping again. Some days are just full of Suck and some days that start out fine and putter along at a pleasant speed are suddenly derailed by an unexpected turn of events: something done or not done, expectations not met,...

Have tried for 15 minutes now to think of something to write about that didn’t make me sad, mad or tired. Failed. Will try again tomorrow.