Tagged: beinglizardek

04
Mar
2019

THE WEEK THAT WAS, IS, AND WILL BE INSANE

Where does the time go? It’s been over a week since my last confession. Er, post, I mean. In that time, I have cleaned house like a machine cleaned up the front garden beds finalized the AWC newsletter and website updates before the monthly meeting called and talked to and activated two new AWC members ran the AWC board meeting as our President is still away won trivia night with my team, The Know-It-Alls, at the monthly AWC meeting (prizes: tulips and Reese’s) gotten a raise and praise cleaned and sorted and purged and packed things in my mother-in-law’s apartment...

12
Feb
2019

GROWNUP GAMES

What are you playing at? I just asked myself this question and it made me laugh a little. I’m playing at keeping my cool (especially at work where I was on a short fuse today) and playing house (which I sometimes still feel like I’m doing despite living independently, even when it was with roommates or my husband, since I graduated college) and playing at being an adult. Aren’t we all playing at that? Do you feel like you’re making it up as you go along, too? Do we all feel that way secretly and some of us are just...

10
Feb
2019

FEBRUWEARY

I’ve been so busy. February is short but at least being busy all the time makes it feel shorter, but it’s also annoyingly awful weather-wise, so even though it’s early in the month, I am already tired of it, and longing for spring. One of my college roommates, after she moved to Chicago, used to throw a F*ck February party every year, complete with palm trees and sand and a beach-themed clothing requirement. If I wasn’t already so busy, I might have planned one of those. I could certainly use it. Party of the busy has been cleaning and sorting...

18
Jan
2019

PUTTING WORDS TOGETHER

I’ve always been a reader. Since I can remember, I’ve read voraciously, first library books and then when I was older and could afford it, filling my little book cabinet and bookcases with books I loved and read and re-read until they were in tatters. I cut my reading teeth on Little Women and Little House on the Prairie and Heidi, on Edith Nesbit and Edward Eager and Madeleine L’Engle, and all the thousands of books that I could spend this entire post listing, but won’t. I can’t remember NOT reading, not wanting to read. I stayed up too late...

14
Jan
2019

SNOW, STUFF & SALAD

We woke up to the white stuff today, and lots of it. Even though I don’t think there was actually that much, what there was seemed to have been blown into our yard, along our streets and all over our cars. But when I went outside to scrape, I discovered it was all white fluffy fluffness, easily brushed off. The roads, on the other hand, were not so fun. We narrowly missed being trapped in our neighborhood by a bus that couldn’t make an uphill turn and then WERE trapped by another bus that couldn’t make the turn in our...

28
Dec
2018

RETROSPECTIVE

here is something crazy about how fast time goes…it flies, it swoops, it zooms and I am left gasping again by the fact that it is once again the end of a year that sped by. It’s been a good year for all of us, and we only see good things for the year to come. Family & Personal Highlights of 2018 Keeping myself diabetes-free and my weight down Singing with Karin in a huge 1000 participant Gospelfest concert Anders participating in the year-long X-Cup mountain biking tournaments and Cykel Wasa My oldest best friend visiting for a week Martin...

11
Dec
2018

SOON THE BELLS WILL START*

I don’t feel very Christmassy. Even though my cards were all signed, sealed and mailed over a week ago, and I’ve been to a Christmas market and bought and shipped several presents, I am just not in the Christmas spirit. I suspect part of the reason is that we are not decorating for the holidays. Normally by now, we’d have a tree (even if it wasn’t yet all the way decorated) and the smell of fresh pine would have filled the house. There are no cheerful Santas or tomtes or reindeer or angels peering at me from various nooks and...

01
Dec
2018

WAKE UP WITH DETERMINATION, GO TO BED WITH SATISFACTION

No slug day for me today, though I did manage to sleep in a bit. I wake up early nearly every day with a headache starting or raging, and have to decide whether I can fall back asleep or must take some medicine after getting to the bathroom. It feels like it’s almost always either dehydration or tension causing the problem and despite drinking plenty of water, it happens again the next night. UGH. I read for awhile, checked emails, and then got up around 10 to shower and dress. I had a full mental list of things to do...

17
Nov
2018

STUFFED

I think a lot about dying these days. I’m not sure why. Maybe because I’m over halfway to a hundred? Maybe because I wonder what my family would do without me? Maybe because I see signs of decay in so many places. It’s in the news. It’s in the illnesses and diseases and diagnoses that drop like bombs around you. It’s a worm in the brain that whispers what if. What if? What would I do if I lived forever anyway? Even if inevitable, it’s a squirmy uncomfortable contemplation. All the accumulated flotsam of my life, both soothing and cluttering...

31
Oct
2018

CARPE DIEM AND DAMN THE TORPEDOES

I find it so inutterably hard to read the news these days. It feels overwhelming and awful and as if we are just buried in an unending heap of horrible that goes on and on. I know that it’s NOT all bad news, but the scary stuff so often outweighs the positive that I really struggle sometimes to find the good things. I read Hans Rosling’s book Factfulness a month or so ago and he talked quite a lot about how the human brain is wired to respond to bad news and drama and that we, as humans, tend to...