Tagged: beinglizardek

26
Oct
2022

A STORY I FORGOT TO TELL

I read this poem this evening and it hit me. Prayer by Marie Howe Every day I want to speak with you. And every day something more important calls for my attention—the drugstore, the beauty products, the luggage I need to buy for the trip. Even now I can hardly sit here among the falling piles of paper and clothing, the garbage trucks outside already screeching and banging. The mystics say you are as close as my own breath. Why do I flee from you? My days and nights pour through me like complaints and become a story I forgot...

14
Oct
2022

TOO MUCH TO SEE STRAIGHT

Sometimes I wonder why I bother writing here. I know I say it’s for me, for posterity, etc., but when you are blogging and no one ever comments, it’s a little unmotivating. I suppose it’s my own fault, since I don’t a) market this blog at all or, b) write regularly enough. My family says they read it, but I don’t think anyone else does. And man, I’ve been lame lately. I blame work. The crazy at work. I’ve been back for 4 weeks after vacation and it’s been non-stop crazy and super stress. I really hope it starts leveling...

08
Oct
2022

BUSY WEEKEND BEE

I’ve been back at work for 3 weeks and it’s been non-stop crazy, with no end in sight. And tons going on around work in the rest of my life, too. Today, however, I have the house to myself until evening at least, and while I’ve been up since 6:30 and busy ever since, I’m taking a moment to stop what I’m working on and write something. Yesterday, I talked to my spine doctor to find out about logistics for when and if I decide to go for the neck operation. I wanted to be able to factor in timing...

02
Oct
2022

THE EARLIER IT GETS LATE

Already October. This year is, like all of them, flying by, at the same that I think this particular one has been going at a decently slow pace. I wanted to be posting more, and writing more, and caring more, but I find all three of those to be difficult just now. Karin moved the rest of her stuff home tonight, fixed dinner for us, and then promptly took off for Malmö. I guess my vision of cozy family evenings with all 4 of us hanging out talking was a pipe dream in my own head, haha! She leaves for...

28
Sep
2022

DOWN IN THE DUMPS, LOOKING UP

Getting off my butt, or rather, sitting down on it, and writing a post, since I’ve been too busy the last two weeks to even think about writing or had any motivation whatsoever. The first two weeks of work, so far, have been insane. All of us are stressed to the max, and trying to just get through everything that is being thrown at us. I actually said I needed a stiff drink yesterday after everything we’re dealing with, and I don’t even drink! I hope it lightens up a little bit soon, as work stress, plus worrying about my...

13
Aug
2022

ANOTHER ONE AROUND THE SUN

It was my birthday on Wednesday. Not a big one, unless you count that fact 58 is a pretty big number. But I mean it didn’t end in a zero or a five. Two more years until the next “big one”. Which I’m kind of not looking forward to, to be honest. Anyway, it was a nice birthday, despite the fact that I worked all day. Anders was away but came home that afternoon, Karin came home for dinner, so all 4 of us were together all evening. I picked up Thai food from our favorite takeaway place in Lund,...

08
Aug
2022

IT MOOSE BE LOVE!

During one of the lulls in the pandemic, my manager gifted her husband with a moose safari for his birthday. !!! I got all the details from her and promptly told my family that I, too, wanted a moose safari! I added it to my Christmas wish list, and the kids got it for me! The moose safari in question was at a moose park in Markaryd, which is quite a distance from us, approximately 1.5 hours north. But last year, when we were visiting our friends Mats and Annelott, we saw signs for a NEW moose park in Skäralid,...

04
Aug
2022

MISSING PEOPLE

When was the last time I saw you? It feels as if the pandemic has squashed all conception of time, and I’ve lost track. I feel like I haven’t seen most anyone in years, apart from my husband, kids, two best friends Debbie and Camilla, and my colleagues. The last time I saw my mom was June 2019, for a week in Seattle. That was, incidentally, the last time I saw my oldest friend Becky, and Chuck (and got to meet his wife). I saw Russell in Stockholm in June 2019 as well, but the last time I saw Kathey...

03
Aug
2022

PLANTY, PINCHY, PERSPIRING

It’s super hot and muggy today, the kind of weather I like the absolute least. We’ve got every fan in the house going, all the windows are open, and even the front door, trying to get a cross-breeze. I was just out in the garden watering and the water was sucked up by the earth as fast as it came out of the hose. Martin and I went to the plantshop after work and bought a new coral-colored rosebush for under the trellis and Anders already planted it. I hope it’s as prolific as the previous one was. I doubt...

31
Jul
2022

JUST WHAT I NEEDED

I think this coming week is the last of the dead weeks, and then people will start coming back to work. If things start ramping up, that’s quite alright with me, even though I am still not done with the “projects to do if no work is coming in”. Last week, because I was sick, I ended up working all week from home. I plan to work at least tomorrow and Tuesday in the office, then hope to work the rest at home again, because after that everyone will be back and I’ll have to be onsite more than not....