Monthly Archive: May 2009

05
May
2009

HYMN

I’m too sick-at-heart to write much right now. Grief and concern and horror are like giant elephants lumbering around the room. Every time I turn around I’m struck again by how enormous they are, and how they just seem to have come out of nowhere and how they take up ALL THE SPACE around me. Too many friends going through too many awful things right now. How can these things be?? I have no answers and my cries to the universe seem to be falling on deaf ears. Perhaps if I try singing instead.

03
May
2009

DON’T COUNT EVERY HOUR IN THE DAY, MAKE EVERY HOUR IN THE DAY COUNT

It’s the evening of the 3rd day of the 5th month of the year. It feels as though it was simultaneously just Christmas a moment ago and as if it is just around the corner. If the year continues at this speed, it IS just around the corner. Time boggles me, often. It’s so …heedless. It takes no heed. Had to stop and go look up the etymology of heed. It’s word that seems to get used a lot without people ever stopping, ironically, to take heed as to what it really means: it means “to pay attention, to give...

01
May
2009

BITS OF TID

One friend started chemo today. Another starts chemo on Monday. A third has been extremely ill with something the doctors haven’t been able to identify and yet another has been struggling with a debilitating disease for quite some time. I don’t know how to be there for any of them. I don’t feel like I AM there for any of them. None of them live particularly near to me, though 2 are within an hour’s drive (1 of those is actually in a different country, however), but even so, I am feeling continually frustrated and upset with myself that I...

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