Perilously close to being a complete snark monster. Have so far managed to restrain myself but HONESTLY. Some people just beg for it.
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Anders is on vacation this week, while I am working. It’s my last week of work before a month-long vacation. I had thought I wouldn’t have enough to do this week, as so many people are already on vacation (Sweden basically shuts down in July) that no new projects are coming in, but I was busy all day today and expect I will be the rest of the week, which is nice.
It’s nice to have a steady flow of work and be able to concentrate on what I’m doing and not be in the middle of a stress-frenzy like I have been (like most of us have been) the whole first half of this year. This is the down period, but what it feels like is what NORMAL ought to be, when it comes to workload and project flow.
When I came home from work, I found the laundry machine busily buzzing away and a previous load already folded and hung up. The counter, which had piled with dishes from last night, was bare and sparkling and the dishwasher was empty, which meant it had been unloaded, filled, run and unloaded again. The house was picked up and the pile of birthday presents that littered the living room yesterday had been removed and presumably stowed where they belong. And best of all, the drain in the bathroom sink which has been clogged for ages, despite my attempts to unclog it with the crappy Swedish version of eco-draino, was running sweetly and cleanly again. I have a darling dear for a husband.
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All I want to do lately is read and sleep. And play Spider Solitaire. WTF? It’s CONSUMING, this lethargy.
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So many things I am thinking; mostly things I am saying to other people in my head. People I know, people I work with, people I read. I don’t dare let any of it out to their faces, but it’s boiling away inside like a mini bubbling volcano at the moment. Not good. At the same time, there are some far away people I just want to hold and hug and pet until all their hurts go away. Not being able to do either one of these things is making me a little crazy.
I don’t get like this very often. I don’t like it that much. I think I’ll go sleep on it some more.