Monthly Archive: February 2006

28
Feb
2006

PAY NO ATTENTION TO THE MAN BEHIND THE CURTAIN

Yesterday, a once-upon-a-time-good-friend cancelled a dinner date with me for the second time in 2 months. This is not the same person that upset me with the cancelling just a little while ago, but it is one more in the series of events that have added to the soul-searching, and self-evaluation I seem to be in the middle of. I don’t have the time or energy to continue making the effort any more with that particular person. If she tries to reschedule again, I think I will just say no. And if she asks me why, I will try very...

26
Feb
2006

BIG BLUE

Where IS everybody? *knock knock* Is this thing on?? Was the sky the same blue over there by you as it was over me today? Because it was BLUE. It was bluer than blue. It was the perfect shade of total and endless blue, cloud-free, sun-shiney blue, the kind of blue you wish for every day, the blue of my husband’s eyes, yes, that blue. Electric bluegaloo. Coo coo cachoo! Ka-blue-y! An overhead explosion that removed the clouds, the jetstreams, the birds, the cirrus wisps and cleared the sky for miles around, Ka-blue–mm! It was like that ALL DAY. Martin...

25
Feb
2006

DON’T COUNT THE DAYS, MAKE THE DAYS COUNT

I dream weird dreams about babies sliding across floors and down highways, waking only when Anders comes in to tell me he’s leaving for hockey practice, and then the speedy sliding babies are gone. The kids are chattering in the kitchen, they are very loud, but I fall back asleep. No dreams this time, and when I awake again I feel drugged and logy. Stagger up and out of bed, to stand disoriented for a few moments. The sun is indecisive; he might show, he might not. Despite the lateness of the hour, the aquarium is still dark; the fish...

24
Feb
2006

TV McHATERSON

I shaved the car windows this morning. It looked like ice but it came off in tissue-paper-thin white curled strips just like the skin from a really bad sunburn when it starts peeling. I only got to do 8 windows and then it was gone, and time to drive to work. Sunburn-skin is gross, but you just can’t stop yourself. You try to pull off the largest possible piece and you can see the pattern of your skin and the tiny tiny pinprick holes where the hairs poked through. Every grey february tree had a solitary black bird perched at...

21
Feb
2006

A MAGIC FAR BEYOND ANYTHING DONE HERE

Been thinking about, and talking about music, and singing in my head and out loud. Music infuses and enthuses me. If I had a soundtrack to each day my step would be lighter, but the nice thing is, I’m usually singing my own soundtrack, so if my step were any lighter I’d be bounding up in the air like an astronaut on the moon. Boing! I find it hard to work without music playing somewhere in the room, in the house, or in my head. One reason I dread sharing my office with someone is the worry that they won’t...

19
Feb
2006

IT IS NEITHER GOOD NOR BAD BUT THINKING MAKES IT SO

I’ve watched more TV this weekend than I think I have all year. Ice dancing, Olympic hockey, Melodifestivalen, Bruce Almighty, and more ice dancing in a few minutes (or would have been if the #$@!% satellite hadn’t picked JUST NOW to go on the fritz. ARGH). I’ve gone nowhere except for walks each day. Despite having no plans I have managed to accomplish a lot, knocking several cleaning projects off the to-do list and feel pretty good overall about the R&R I slipped inbetween the lines. I finished one book, read another, and started a third. After a heart-to-heart with...

17
Feb
2006

I GET BY WITH A LITTLE HELP

A month of Mondays would be too much for me, I’d topple and collapse, judging by the week of Mondays I just crawled through. Working until 7 p.m. yesterday saved my bacon today, though. I got enough done in those 3 extra (uninterrupted!) hours that the panic could recede to the point of letting me deal with the usual crazy busyness of a workday without feeling as though my head was going to spin around and around until it finally twisted right off and flew away, still revolving. “saved my bacon” What a weird expression. I wouldn’t have thought that...

15
Feb
2006

TIME EXISTS SO THAT EVERYTHING DOESN’T HAPPEN ALL AT ONCE*

It keeps adding up and piling on and never-ending. Do I have a task magnet stuck on me? *swipes at clothing* Doing my own work, plus half the work of a missing colleague is beginning to take its toll and its only been 2 weeks, though there’s no near end in sight at the moment. Right before I left the office, running late, 2 people discussing and arguing and NOT GETTING OUT OF MY WAY so I could leave made me feel as though my blood pressure was actually surging and starting to short me out like a freaky fuse....

14
Feb
2006

VALENTINY

Roses are red, violets are blue, Blogs are read, livejournals, too. O dear internet, how I love you! XOXO Lizardek Cracking Me Up: Why Should Cupid Have All the Fun? More Cracking Me Up: Nothing says I love you like a skull and crossbones

13
Feb
2006

I CAN SEE SPRING FROM HERE

There’s vaseline on the winter lens, everything is airbrushed in a vaporous and peripheral veil, a shadow fog teasing the eye. The fields down the long hill are mottled, a snowmelt, no-melt zone of loamy chocolate earth, frozen-in-motion sprouts of rapeseed, sugarbeets, alfalfa green against the spangled white of the snow crisps. All along the edges of the roadways, exhaust has pitted and etched a poisonous lace pattern. It makes me literally sick to my stomach to think too hard about that black sludge seeping down into the earth, into the water, into the grain. The snow is only momentarily...

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