Tagged: littlemisssunshine

01
May
2021

ON HOLD

Happy first of May! It’s a beautiful day here, sunny with blue skies and a little breeze, but definitely still on the chilly side. We still have some 0 temps in the forecast but I’m really hoping that slightly warmer weather is on the way. On Wednesday night Anders had an accident in the garage and took a fall. He was astride the motorcycle he is rebuilding and the whole thing tipped sideways, throwing him into the wall, as well as everything in front of it, including a grill and a metal bike stand. End result: his motorcycle is fine...

20
Apr
2021

NEW CHAPTERS

I threw my back out this weekend, moving furniture around in the kids’ rooms and then made it worse by continuing to work, and then cleaning out the fridge. By Sunday I could barely walk. Getting up from a sitting position or from bed was torture, walking hurt, sitting hurt. Everything hurt. Thank all the gods for ibuprofen and heating pads. I had a massage scheduled yesterday after work as well and Emily spent extra time on my lower back, getting at the place where the muscles were protesting. I had a couple of bad nights, but this morning, despite...

10
Apr
2021

IF I DID NOT LAUGH I SHOULD DIE*

Last week was not a great week. Specifically, Thursday was not a great day. In fact, it was a down-right shitty day. Things went wrong all day and culminated in crying in front of my manager on a Teams call, which was extremely frustrating and embarrassing. I was crying because I was angry and upset and then all the rest of it came pouring in on top and just made it worse: worry and stress and sadness and fear and all the emotions this past year has been piling on top of me. UGH. To make things even worse, poor...

14
Mar
2021

CAN YOU COMMENT?

I haven’t been getting many comments lately. I understand from at least two people who read my blog, but who don’t have Livejournal accounts, that they are no longer able to comment and get an error message claiming they are “banned from commenting”. I have checked all my settings and I have NOT banned anyone, and my Livejournal is set to allow commenting from anonymous, non-LJ sources, so I’m at a loss as to what to do. If you can comment (and are not an LJ user), please do so. If you CAN’T, can you please send me a PM...

13
Mar
2021

UGHS ALL AROUND

Mostly, I am tired or stressed (work) or bored or lethargic. I am tired of life during a pandemic as so many people are, but I have no right to complain, really. It mostly means that I am struggling with not having anything to write about. We finished watching Six Feet Under last night, and I had read somewhere that the show’s finale was considered one of the best season finales ever. I couldn’t figure out how that could be possible, in the episodes leading up to it, but they were right: it was great. Closure all around, in every...

27
Feb
2021

PANDEMICLY

All week long, I’m thinking: “write a post, write a post, write a post” and then it’s the weekend again and the posts were only written in my head. I don’t want to sit down in front of the computer in the evenings to write a post when I’m sitting in front of the computer all day long for work. It’s a conundrum. My brother called this morning and we talked for longer than usual, due to the fact that his family left to go for a walk without him at the beginning of the phone call. He’s longing for...

18
Feb
2021

DESIGN WOES, DESIGN GOES

I’m really angry and upset about something I can’t talk about here. And not just because I try to keep the awful stuff out of this space. There are other people involved and once again, 2020 just keeps on giving…this feeling that the awfulness of last year is spilling over and into and causing this year to brim over with awfulness, too. GAH. I’ve taken tomorrow off, not because of the awful thing that is consuming all my mental space, but because I have to use up 20 of my vacation days before April 1st, although if I don’t, I...

12
Feb
2021

CONSTANT VERGE

Lately, I feel like I’m living with all my nerves on the outside of my skin. Everything is overwhelming, or else I’m too sensitive. The smallest things make me feel like crying and that makes me feel stupid and small myself. If I could curl up and sleep all day, I think I would, but I don’t. I get up, I shower and dress. I work a full day’s work, I eat lunch and dinner and when the sun is shining I add to my daily treadmill 20 with a brisk walk around the neighborhood. I read every day, I...

25
Jan
2021

UP AND THEN WAY DOWN

Last week started on such a high, with the anticipation of the inauguration coming like a rainbow of angel choirs singing and the sun coming up. It’s been SUCH a freaking relief to look FORWARD to reading the news, checking the headlines, skimming social media. I heart everything! I care! I thumbs you up! And I cannot overstate what a relief it has been to have the former 45 silenced and to have silence not only from him but about him. He can’t disappear fast enough, as far as I’m concerned. Anders and I watched the inauguration, and I got...

07
Jan
2021

AS THE YEARS GO BY, THEY TAKE THEIR TOLL ON YOU*

It’s been snowing all day, that thin corn snow that doesn’t stick. I didn’t actually check the temperature but it had to have been right at freezing, because even though it was cold enough to snow, it all just melted as soon as it touched down. Now, however, in the early evening, it’s STILL snowing and now, finally, there is a thin blanket of white. We’ve only had one other night of snow (maybe two? I can’t remember) but it’s always been gone by midday the day after. I hope it will stick around a little and brighten things up....

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