Tagged: littlemisssunshine

10
Mar
2025

DON’T GET ME STARTED

Why is it that every time I tell someone, almost always someone who is NOT American, that I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT, they just keep on trying to talk about it? Trying to get me to engage in a conversation in which they want me to explain, defend, or continuously agree or react in shock about the batshit crazy takeover of the American government right now. I DON’T FUCKING WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. Because you don’t want to get me started. The whole situation enrages me and fills me with despair and disgust and disbelief. I can’t...

19
Feb
2025

STOP DOING MY HEAD IN

Typically, nowadays, I wake up 2-3 times a night to go to the bathroom. The diabetes medicine I am on makes me have to pee about once every hour or so, all day, and all night. Sigh. I’ve written about this before, it’s not news. Anyway, last night, I was awakened by my bladder around 5-something and after going to the bathroom and stumbling my way back to bed in the dark, I accidentally saw the time on Anders’ clock. My clock face is turned off at night, partly because it’s too bright, and partly because I don’t want to...

20
Jan
2025

MONDAY MUSINGS

FINALLY got a response from my doctor and a renewal for my prescription of nerve pain medication which I would have run out of tomorrow. Whew. Under the wire. TWO weeks before he responded, and it took 3 messages in the ongoing medical chat, a voicemail requesting the renewal, and another phone call this morning. Geez. I was completely stressed out about this. He at least apologized and said he’d been home sick and there isn’t anyone else covering his patients. Which is ridiculous. I couldn’t exactly berate him because it feels like it’s a bigger problem, but what if...

11
Jan
2025

JUST WHAT I DIDN’T KNEE-D

I don’t know if Murphy’s Law is applicable, but my right knee is now borked. Thank goodness the left one is nearly healed, even if I still can’t bend it all the way, because if it was also still a problem, I’d be completely screwed. Started Thursday afternoon, and got progressively worse, limping, sharp pain in the back of my knee when bent or straight. Limping yesterday as well, wore my knee brace on the right side instead. Alvedon and ibuprofen not much help. Got an appointment with Tilda physiotherapist in Löberöd for Tuesday Jan 14 (earliest available). Hurt during...

15
Dec
2024

READY TO LOSE IT

I could do with a little less stress. I feel like every little extra thing is about to shove me over the edge. I’ve been so filled with worry about health-related issues and worry about my mom and guilt over my sister dealing with all of it, and the usual crazy at work, that tonight when I misjudged and hit a curb (AGAIN WTF) with the Tesla, I almost lost it completely. I’ve never had a car I dislike so much. I love having an ELECTRIC car, but I hate the Tesla more and more. Not just because of Elon...

26
Nov
2024

COOKIE MONSTER IS SAVED

I am very sad about the cookie situation. Which is, that I can’t have any, because I’m not supposed to be eating sugar. And it’s coming up on Christmas cookie season. AUGH! I organized the cookie exchange for the AIC again this year, but at the very last minute, right before I sent out the email telling everyone how many were participating and how many cookies to make, I took my name off the list. There were 12 people participating, which was a nice number, and a lot of cookies, and I thought that if I had 66 cookies in...

10
Nov
2024

PLENTY OF UGH

I can’t write much about my reactions to the election results. I find I can’t think much about it either. I don’t want to talk about it, especially at work where everyone seems to think that a) I should defend them or b) I should explain them. Neither of which can I, nor do I feel obligated to, do. I can’t answer for the 51% of the country that voted for insanity AGAIN. I am angry, depressed, saddened, boggled, and most of all numb. I can’t watch or read the news right now, though I am still reading the newsletters...

19
Oct
2024

UGH

How many times do I think about writing and then don’t do it? Every day, nearly. It feels like my entire life is centered around medical issues right now which is no fun for me and definitely no fun for anyone else to read about. More later as events warrant. Mood: cranky Music: none, just me

23
Jul
2024

I AM SWEET ENOUGH ALREADY, AM I NOT?

I can’t seem to quit sugar. I have no self-control whatsoever. UGH. Back in 2013 I stopped drinking soda cold turkey. I’d been a Coke addict since I was really young, often drinking multiple cokes a day. Coke was my THING. All our Swedish friends learned fairly quickly to have Coke AND ice on hand when we were over, neither of which is really Swedish. I stopped drinking soda because I had read somewhere that the amount of sugar in soda if you drank one can a day was equivalent to 20 pounds a year. So it was WEIGHT LOSS...

03
Jul
2024

SORRY, HAVE MOOD POISONING. MUST HAVE BEEN SOMETHING I HATE*

So far, it’s been one of those weeks. Monday was a complete shit show with one frustrating, aggravating, and upsetting thing after another. I hadn’t slept well, and my knee was hurting to boot. The only good thing was talking to my manager and knowing that I have her support, no matter what. But the residual feelings about everything that happened 3 days ago is still bugging me. Why is that I just can’t let things like this go? They sit and spin about in my head, on repeat, for DAYS. Last night I slept poorly again. I woke up...