Tagged: littlemisssunshine

29
Sep
2025

IT’S JUST HAIR

Right now I am mostly sad, on the verge of depressed. On Tuesday, I finally had the appointment at the skin department of the hospital and the doctor examined me, took my history, and then took a biopsy from my scalp. The results will take up to two weeks (it’s been a week tomorrow) and hopefully it will show if any of the medicine I am on is the cause for the massive hair loss. Then the nurse put a huge bandage on my head and I had to walk back across the entire hospital complex to my car looking...

13
Sep
2025

IS IT HAIR-BERNATION TIME YET?

I had great plans to write a LOT, if not every day, then as often as possible, this year. And I was doing pretty well, really, until all the health issues came crashing down on my head and took my hair with them. At this point, my hair is mostly hairspray and wishing. And if one more person starts to say something about how my hair looks just fine, I will punch them in the throat. Today, I woke up at 6:30 am and couldn’t get back to sleep but since I had gotten up 4 times in the night...

08
Sep
2025

UGH GAH SOB

Haven’t been in the mood for writing. Too upset about all the physical health issues that are going on right now. I’ve lost nearly half my hair and huge amounts continue to come out daily. I finally got a letter TODAY (2 weeks after I flagged the issue for my doctor and 4 weeks after I noticed the problem) to set up an appointment with the skin doctor, but of course got it too late to call today. :/ In addition to the hair loss which is causing me to have a meltdown at least once a day, I also...

15
Aug
2025

HAIR WE GO AGAIN

As if all my other health problems weren’t enough to deal with, I’ve been experiencing rather severe hair loss AGAIN. This has now been going on, on and off, for 3 years. After a terrible time 3 years ago, when I was the US at my mom’s and lost what felt like nearly half of my hair volume, it has slowly gotten better. There are so many possible reasons for hair loss that it’s almost impossible to pin down a cause: aging, health issues, psoriasis, medicines, genetics, drastic weight loss, stress, thyroid, menopause, hormone imbalances, malnutrition, etc., etc., etc. This...

18
Jun
2025

DIAGNOSIS

I don’t know if you have ever had a medical procedure in which a camera is inserted into your body when you are awake and aware, but it is a VERY weird thing to see. I had another colonoscopy today. The last one was in October, and even though there was a screen where I could see the camera movement then as well, it was awkwardly placed and would have required me twisting my neck weirdly and because a colonoscopy is both uncomfortable and slightly painful, I mostly didn’t try to look last time, but kept my eyes closed and...

13
Jun
2025

WAY WAY TMI

Well, I guess it’s time to write the story of what’s been happening to me (for posterity) and make some explanation for the long radio silence. WORD OF WARNING: grossness and ugly bodily functions ahead. Read at your own risk. I was sick on April 30th with stomach issues (not throwing up), gassy/bubbly pains and loose bowels. It basically continued from there for weeks, getting worse and worse until I was basically only shitting blood, and terrible diarrhea. No warning, multiple times day and night. Got more and more tired over the weeks and more and more dehydrated. On May...

20
Apr
2025

POST-OP

Anders took me to the Ortho Center in Malmö on Friday morning. I had to be there at 10:30 am and he couldn’t stay so he dropped me off and went home to work on the MG and wait for my call to come be picked up. I checked in, paid (SEK 150!), and was sent up to the prep waiting room but didn’t wait at all (then). The nurse checked my name, gave me a cup of pills and a glass of water (pain medication and anti-nausea meds) and then handed me a pile of clothing and took me...

10
Mar
2025

DON’T GET ME STARTED

Why is it that every time I tell someone, almost always someone who is NOT American, that I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT, they just keep on trying to talk about it? Trying to get me to engage in a conversation in which they want me to explain, defend, or continuously agree or react in shock about the batshit crazy takeover of the American government right now. I DON’T FUCKING WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. Because you don’t want to get me started. The whole situation enrages me and fills me with despair and disgust and disbelief. I can’t...

19
Feb
2025

STOP DOING MY HEAD IN

Typically, nowadays, I wake up 2-3 times a night to go to the bathroom. The diabetes medicine I am on makes me have to pee about once every hour or so, all day, and all night. Sigh. I’ve written about this before, it’s not news. Anyway, last night, I was awakened by my bladder around 5-something and after going to the bathroom and stumbling my way back to bed in the dark, I accidentally saw the time on Anders’ clock. My clock face is turned off at night, partly because it’s too bright, and partly because I don’t want to...

20
Jan
2025

MONDAY MUSINGS

FINALLY got a response from my doctor and a renewal for my prescription of nerve pain medication which I would have run out of tomorrow. Whew. Under the wire. TWO weeks before he responded, and it took 3 messages in the ongoing medical chat, a voicemail requesting the renewal, and another phone call this morning. Geez. I was completely stressed out about this. He at least apologized and said he’d been home sick and there isn’t anyone else covering his patients. Which is ridiculous. I couldn’t exactly berate him because it feels like it’s a bigger problem, but what if...