Tagged: beinglizardek

02
Aug
2020

WHAT TO DO

Ermagerd, it’s already August. How time flies when you’re… oh, never mind. Time isn’t flying, actually. It’s moving, at least. All the things that I usually look forward to about the fall and the holidays feel very far away and unattainable right now. Everything is still canceled. Things are still closed. We’re not seeing friends or going to parties. I don’t know if anyone is planning on hosting a crayfish party this year, but even if they were, I’m not sure we’d go. We have no info about Karin’s starting university in a…month? some weeks? We have no date and...

26
Jul
2020

NEWS FROM THE INSIDE OF MY HOUSE

Where do people go when they stop blogging? How can they stand not knowing what’s going on in the lives of the friends they’ve made online? How can they stand not knowing how the story continues? Even though I can go weeks without posting, I can’t imagine stopping forever. Or, well, I can, but I don’t want to. I like having this record of my life, my thoughts, my obiter dictum. I still think about blog friends, online friends, who left the blog world years ago. Just dropped off, stopped writing, as if no one cared that they were gone....

21
Jul
2020

MOVING FORWARD, MOVING UP, MOVING IN

Anders is on vacation and so far, he’s made an awesome start on his vacation project, which is redoing the entire deck and making the glassed-in porch bigger. In 2 days, he’s already ripped out and removed the entire deck and the porch walls. Tomorrow he has a trailer all day to take multiple loads of wood to the dump, and on Thursday he’s rented a container to remove all the sand that was underneath the deck. Right now, he’s doing a side project: removing the stump of the plum tree. Not easy! I am still working. If I can...

01
Jul
2020

LIFE, VEGETABLES & OTHER TIMELY TOPICS

Every day mostly the same. Same routines, same meals, same feelings. I wake up, I shower and dress. I work, I eat something. I read something. I walk on the treadmill. I do laundry. I play games on the iPad and think about writing. I call my mom or my son. I talk to my husband and my daughter. I water the garden and the vegetables and admire the roses. Sometimes, something changes and I see a couple of my friends or we visit Anders’ mom (from behind plexiglas, when it’s not raining). In our garden, there are tiny green...

07
Mar
2020

ALL OF THE ABOVE, APPROXIMATELY

It’s 6:09 am on a Saturday morning as I start typing this. I’ve been awake since 4:44 am, god knows why. I woke up abruptly, padded to the bathroom, had a drink of water and laid back down, expecting to fall back asleep without a problem, but no. Tossing and turning didn’t help and then I started doing layouts in my head and that was it…I was wide awake by 5:30. It’s been ages since this has happened. I honestly think that there is so much anxiety swirling around everything right now and this is where it’s affecting me today....

29
Feb
2020

THERE SHE GOES, THERE SHE GOES AGAIN

I don’t know why I was just thinking about it, but one thing that I regret is that there are no home movies of my childhood. We never had a video camera, and Anders and I never got one either, when our kids were small, so I regret that, too. Even though we eventually had iphones, it wasn’t until the kids were nearly teenagers. We have a VHS of our wedding somewhere, and a film clip some friends took at an AWC fourth of July BBQ when Karin was quite young, but that’s pretty much it. So, February flew by....

02
Feb
2020

DOWNTIME CHEZ LIZARDEK

I survived last week’s crazy but honestly, only by the skin of my teeth (which is a horrid expression, ew). It was grueling with work so busy and something to do every single evening. I didn’t get home most evenings until well after 9 and since I typically need to be in bed by 9:30 if I’m going to be worth anything the following day, it was a bit of a struggle to remain both upright and cheerful and I don’t think I managed all that well, if truth be told. It wasn’t that the things I was doing were...

26
Jan
2020

FILLING IN THE NEGATIVE SPACE WITH POSITIVELY EVERYTHING*

I was waiting for a friend of mine at the mall on Friday evening, sitting on a bench outside of the store we were going to the grand opening of. I had my phone out and was checking email or Facebook or something and I glanced up to see if I could see her coming yet. But coming toward me was Karin. My daughter. And I thought, “What is Karin doing here??” Only a split second later I realized it WASN’T her at all. It was a girl her age, dressed EXACTLY like Karin dresses, with the same shape face...

12
Jan
2020

OUT WITH THE OLD

One of the items on my long-term to-do list was “purge Xmas stuff”. It’s been on the list since the summer of 2018 but I couldn’t do anything about it last year as we spent last Christmas in the US, so we didn’t decorate or have a tree at home. But it was on my mind, as one in a long line of cleaning-out projects that I’ve been slowly working through. I actually decorated a bit early this year, as we had our big Thanksgiving dinner at the last Saturday of November and I wanted the house festive for the...

06
Jan
2020

A DECADE OF MANAGEABLE GOALS

I don’t really do New Year’s resolutions as such, but every year when I write my Retrospective post, I write down what I think are manageable goals for the following year. I think exercise and healthier eating are on them every year, and I feel like I’m sort of just kidding myself with how seriously I tend to take that one, which is probably the most important one that’s always on my list. My weight has at least been hovering around the same place for nearly the whole last year and since I am still under the weight I was...

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