Lizardek

23
Nov
2011

THOSE MOMENTS WHEN OUR HEARTS ARE CONSCIOUS OF OUR TREASURES*

As long as I’ve lived in Sweden, I’ve tried to keep my American heritage alive for my children, and for myself. I would say we celebrate certain traditions religiously throughout the year, but truth is, we’re not religious about it at all. We just think it’s fun. I’ve had to learn to compromise my expectations for some dearly-held family favorites and we’ve learned to create our own meld of Swedish & American celebrations. Christmas, for instance, is a 2-day festival here. Halloween is organized down to the minute. There is no real outside motivator for my kids when it comes...

22
Nov
2011

HOLD ON TO THE FEEEEEEEEEEELING

I can’t believe it’s the 22nd of November. I can’t believe I have posted 22 days in a row. I can’t believe how bad some of those posts were. I can’t believe that it is Thanksgiving in 2 days and First Advent in 4. I can’t believe Karin has ANOTHER sore throat. I can’t believe how dark it gets by 4 pm. I can’t believe how long my to-do list is getting, and I haven’t even put the holiday stuff on it yet. I can’t believe how funny Martin can be sometimes. I can’t believe that I only asked for...

21
Nov
2011

BULLETY

Things I Really Don’t Get The audience at NASCAR booing the First Lady…how mature ARE people, honestly? Someone going on sick leave because they just don’t want to deal with their boss anymore More poles to make the road narrower and cause cars to slow down even MORE on the road between Flyinge & Sandby Things That Made Me Smile Today Explaining the difference between its and it’s to Martin with the help of a funny grammar website A hug & kiss from Karin this morning “for the first time in 24 hours, Mom!” Getting nearly halfway through another one...

20
Nov
2011

HALF SLUG HALF BEE (the busy kind)

Anders and Karin left at 5’ohgod in the morning to drive a couple hours north for an all-day soccer tournament. They JUST called (at 9:00 pm!) and are finally done with everything, but Karin still has to shower before they jump in the car to come home. Which means they won’t be home before nearly midnight on a school night. Horrors! Their team came in second and they played great…Karin scored the only goal in the final and they were tied and into sudden death before the other team managed to score again. Martin and I started the day out...

19
Nov
2011

SEARCHING FOR SMALL THINGS

I was going to save this for Thursday, and a do a Poetry Thursday post, which I haven’t done in a million years, but I’ve already been saving it for a really long time, and Thursday feels a long way off at the moment, though I know it will zoom up, and past, before I know it. I’ve been thinking about poetry a lot lately, and how I don’t seem to write any poems anymore. I used to write poetry all the time. It used to flow out of me, especially when I was angry or sad or boggled about...

18
Nov
2011

THE BUSY HAVE NO TIME FOR TEARS*

Someone at work, who is probably looking for another job, told me today that I should get out too, and find a place where I would be more appreciated, because in her words, “you are not appreciated enough around here”. This actually made me laugh (though it made me sad for her, because she obviously feels it applies to her), because it couldn’t be more untrue. I swim in appreciation at work. I dive into it daily and dog-paddle merrily about, with my chin held high. I honestly don’t think a day goes by that I don’t get a thank...

17
Nov
2011

MY KARIN

Karin is a monkey in disguise. Karin is a girl learning how to become a young woman. Karin has a top made out of rubber and a bottom made out of springs. She’s bouncy, trouncy, flouncy, pouncy, fun fun fun fun fun. And wonderful! Just like her brother, Karin’s favorite food is sushi. Her next favorite food is creamy crab nachos. Whenever Karin asks you what your favorite something is, be prepared, because as soon as you answer, she’ll say, “And after that?” Karin’s mobile phone is glued to her hand and she gets frantic if I try and take...

16
Nov
2011

ROLE MODELING

I’ve been going through a million bazillion CDs of photos from the past million bazillion years for a couple of projects I’m in the middle of and I’m not even halfway done, but I found these 2 today and they made me laugh: We have a family tradition of rabbit ears and moose antlers behind people’s heads in photos (which my mom HATES), but I sure missed the placement on this one! 😀

15
Nov
2011

THE CAMEL

It’s really hard for me to climb on top of my quivering pile of motivation to write something when I’m angry or upset or sad or stressed out. Taking deep breaths doesn’t really help. Straightening my back and consciously lowering my shoulders only works so long until the next time, minutes or hours later, when I realize I’m hunching or slumping again. Some days are just full of Suck and some days that start out fine and putter along at a pleasant speed are suddenly derailed by an unexpected turn of events: something done or not done, expectations not met,...

14
Nov
2011

GETTING WHAT I’M SETTLING FOR

Being born a military brat can be both blessing and curse, but for me it was largely a blessing. Moving around so much simply opened my mind and made me aware of the fact that there were other possibilities out there than the one proscribed by my own family and upbringing. For some people, I know, moving so much is simply hard work: always being the new kid in school can especially filter a child’s experiences of an already potentially fraught time period with much more anxiety and stress. For me, it was liberating, though leaving friends and a place...