Author: lizardek

04
Oct
2005

COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS

I have a little devil on one shoulder these days, and a little angel on the other. The devil whispers in my ear and plays with my hair and strokes the back of my neck. He says, “Don’t bother tonight, don’t write. Just go to bed. You’re tired.” The angel reaches around and thumps him a good one. “Ow!” he exclaims, “Hey! That hurt!” She gives him a look and then pats me soothingly. “Don’t listen to him,” she says, “Go write. You’ll feel better.” Often I can’t decide who to listen to. Sometimes I listen to both and dither...

02
Oct
2005

LATER

I don’t hear my husband get up but I hear when the kids do. The television displaces sound as it slams on with a whoosh. I bury my head in the pillows, burrow down the cocoon-tunnel of the winter duvet I put on the bed yesterday. Its warmth and thickness is not enough to keep out the jangling disharmony from the television set. “Turn it down,” I croak. Anders hears me and admonishes the children: shut mama’s door before you turn on the tv! Moments later, the door snicks to, a creaking slam, then not exactly silence, but quiet enough....

01
Oct
2005

UNNNGH

well, that was four hours of my life I’ll never get back, and a very bad feeling about the upcoming AWC year. *sigh*

01
Oct
2005

CAN’T STAND THE EXCITEMENT

It’s a dark day today. Even though the sun was shining when I woke up, and when I fell asleep again, and when I woke up the second time, it’s been cloudy and raining most of the day. A migraine has been sneaking around the back of my neck and I’ve been doing my best to shoo it away…asking for a neckrub from Anders who obliged even though he’d just played hockey and his hands were sore, and taking 2 ibuprofin and then 2 again awhile later when the migraine got cockier, and drinking water and then pepsi max in...

29
Sep
2005

COMPLEMENTARY COLORING

It would probably help in getting comments if I didn’t accidentally set my posts to private, eller hur? *slaps forehead* *** I am such a wimp when it comes to spicy foods. A little wasabi is about all I can manage and most everything else hot just sears the lining off my lips, tongue, mouth and throat, while making other hardier souls laugh their heads off and point fingers at me, while chanting “wimp!” So, I tend not to eat curries or spicy Spanish and Mexican dishes or things with turbo-red killer chilis in them, and most salsa ain’t happening...

28
Sep
2005

IN WHICH LIZ CAN’T TYPE FAST ENOUGH TO KEEP UP WITH HER BOUNCING BRAIN

People are so nice!! YOU are so nice! Those of you on my friends list who live in Sweden or outside of your home country will understand this. It is SUCH a thrill to get an unexpected package and one that contains goodies from home, stuff that you can’t find, that you only get maybe once every few years or so, if that, is an occasion for a happy little dance with a huge, elastic grin on your face. And when it’s goodies that you’ve never even heard of, that just say HOME to you in a way that nothing...

27
Sep
2005

PRESSED BETWEEN THE PAGES OF MY HEART

As promised long ago, here is a selected set of some of my favorites from the weekend Tracey shot my kids. I have so many favorites from this photo session that choosing a handful to post here was an major exercise for me. All photos credited to Tracey Marshall, Studio Zoe. (Delivering the spitting image of you)

25
Sep
2005

PUMPED

La la la! Presentation? Done! Calendar? Done! Program? Done! Ballots? Done! Newsletter? Just about done! Website? Done! Done! DONE! And an hour before I go to sleep to read my lovely new book that I can’t stop thinking about, that I don’t want to put down, that I stayed up too late reading last night, that I want never to end because it’s so good, so far, and hurray for reading books that I love by authors that I love! All that, and a morning spent in the sunshiney fields of pumpkins, polka-dotted fields, spotted and dotted fields: orange and...

24
Sep
2005

THE TIME, SHE FLIES, SHE FLIES SO FAST

The last 3 days have been full of good things, almost too much to write about. They’ve also been full of bad things, almost too much to write about. Thursday I worked really hard on AWC stuff all evening and got a ton done, although I still have a ton left it feels like a lighter ton, somehow. I also talked to my oldest and bestest friend, who is dealing with some of the most awful things a mother can deal with and still stay standing. In addition, I talked to my friends Angie and Kristian, who keep getting punched...

21
Sep
2005

SLIDING

There’s no longer any denying that fall is in full swing. 2 sugar beets by the side of the road: the definitive sign of autumn. The sugar beet factory is lit up and the chimneys are roaring. There’s a chill in the air, but when the wind isn’t blowing, it’s the perfect temperature where sweaters are nice but not necessary. There is this long slope ahead of me, down which I am skating, and I feel I’m doing slalom around each of the obstacles in my path. Each thing on my to-do list, each appointment, each commitment is a barrier,...