Monthly Archive: February 2011

26
Feb
2011

ATTITUDE IS A LITTLE THING THAT MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE*

I am not happy when I am not happy. I am not happy when I can’t concentrate on the positive and shove the things that bother me aside in favor of the good things that surround me. Small prickers under the fingernails of my mood are most definitely torture and I have the urge to yank them out and remove them as quickly as possible. I don’t LIKE being in a bad mood, a grumpy mood, a sad mood. Today, a concentration on good things: sleeping in, smiles, sunshine, swinging down a city street, shopping (sales on books!), sweets in...

25
Feb
2011

BACKSPACE, DELETE

Have tried for 15 minutes now to think of something to write about that didn’t make me sad, mad or tired. Failed. Will try again tomorrow.

22
Feb
2011

ABOUT AS HAPPY AS YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND TO BE*

Black black skies with white white stars. Orion is tilted drunkenly to the left, leaning over our driveway. The big dipper lies lopsided across the other side of the sky, a big ol’ bowl of stars above my head. Our 5-day dog’s back end wags to and fro, tail in counterpoint. Her surprisingly small feet make swishy prints in the sparkley snow powder. I huff above the edge of the scarf wrapped over my head and around my neck: dragonbreath blooms and my glasses fog. I’m making messes of one-dish wonders for lunch lately; I’m sick of salads. Rice or...

19
Feb
2011

SNAPPING POINT

Following on the philosophy of my last post about not saying anything if I don’t have anything good to say…the main thing taking up my brain space this week is the situation at work, and since I try not to write too much about work, especially when I’m not happy about it, I don’t want to step over my own boundaries, so let’s just say that every possible bad thing you could imagine about sitting in open landscaping? Doesn’t even come close to how bad it actually is right now. I’m far from the only unhappy one, but I swear...

16
Feb
2011

SPREADING SUNSHINE

There’s no knowing how the day will go. Even with a forecast read ahead of time, moods can be unpredictable buggers. Early morning sunshine helps swerve the curve upward. Some days, grey ones, with a pressure from above by clouds and within by…oh, just things, cause a trembling and stillness that makes you want to dive back into bed and burrow for your life beneath the covers. The choices you make each day, the words you deliberate over, the conversations in your head that you restrain yourself from having; all these steer the way the day goes. A choice to...

12
Feb
2011

PLANT A SEED OF FRIENDSHIP, REAP A BOUQUET OF HAPPINESS*

Last night we had the 5th anniversary of the beginning of our Wonders dinners together, my friends and I. Debbie was the one who thought of it; she wanted a mentor group of friends that were all living and staying here in Sweden to be a unit where we could help each other, support each other, be there for each other. She asked us each individually to be a part of the group: Angie, Kelly, Emily and me. We were friends before, all of us, for several years, and this was partly a way of finding our way back to...

08
Feb
2011

ADJUSTING MY SAILS

I’m sitting, rather hunched, in the rolling chair at the desk that holds the computer. I’ve been working on my blog book for 2010 and am almost finished with the last bit of editing: updating the table of contents and adding the page numbers. Then I can upload it to Lulu and order a printed copy and the row of little green books with my name on them will lengthen by one more. As soon as I typed the word hunched, I straightened my spine and heard it crack with three small pops. I try really hard not to sit...

05
Feb
2011

IT WOULD BE AN UPDATE IF I WAS ACTUALLY UP

We went to see Tangled tonight, partly because I’d been “boring” all day and Karin and Sydney and probably Martin, who didn’t actually say so, like his sister, who reiterated it several times, were BORED, MOM, and because I had forgotten all about Melodifestivalen starting this evening, but I think we got the better end of the deal because the movie was AWESOME. I admit to having a really soft spot for Disney when they get it right, and with John Lasseter, they REALLY get it right. At the end of the movie, we stayed to watch the end of...

02
Feb
2011

MOOD SWINGS

Good: Surprising my friend Geena at her surprise wedding on Sunday, and getting to be a part of her special moment Bad: Insomnia Good: Praise for a presentation I put together and a brochure layout I’m finalizing Bad: Stressball workdays Good: Finding out at the allergist that I might not be allergic to cats anymore…at least according to the “pricktest” (which is what they call it in Swedish), though I would have to have a bloodtest done for conclusive results Bad: Anxiety dreams about work Good: Results from last week’s mammogram: nothing to report! Bad: Realizing that I had a...

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