Monthly Archive: January 2007

18
Jan
2007

TRYING TO STOP SLAPPING ASIDE THE CLUESTICKS

Why do I do that? Why do I mentally turn away, begin to tune out, slam up a wall as soon as someone starts talking about it? I can feel myself doing it and I have to force myself to listen, force myself not to roll my eyes, not to mentally cover the conversation with a loudly silent YEAH YEAH YEAH inside my skull? Do I do it because I’m in denial? Because I’m so sure that I already KNOW everything that is coming, everything that is being said? Because I hate being lectured at even though I know everyone...

17
Jan
2007

SENSES WORKING OVERTIME

1. Nasty aftertaste following every meal 2. Blurry eye syndrome 3. Disturbingly frequent need to blow nose 4. Slight, but encroaching, deafness in one ear 5. Unsettling inability to come up with, among other things, sought-after words, titles, names Every day is a dark dive through the winter hours. Seemingly ceaseless rain speckles the window. At work I bubble like a watched pot; people lining up outside the glass front of my office, pacing ’til their turn. One needs an article proofread, another an HTML created, the phone rings and it’s the creation of emergency animated web banners on the...

15
Jan
2007

HERE TODAY GONE TOMORROW

Where did the day go? I swear it was morning just a minute ago and I was yawning my way up and into the bathroom to begin the day. And now, suddenly it’s 9:30 p.m. and dark outside and the kids are in bed and somehow I went through an entire day of workworkwork and a trip to the pharmacy and a dinner out with ex-colleagues (which, someone please, remind me next time, NO. Just…no) and driving all the way home…all apparently on AUTO-PILOT. Sheesh. And I wonder why the years seem to fly be so fast. The days are...

14
Jan
2007

THE WINDS WITH WONDER WHIST

Wolf winds howl and swirl around the house all night. I wake constantly to the susurrus of the trees whipping restlessly to and fro. In the late morning the winds are still high and they howl in the ventilation shafts. Once in a while the house seems to shudder. I lie in bed and watch crows struggle to fly into the wind. Aerial acrobatics are dashing but futile and they grab for a passing branch to rest a moment before daring flight once more. A magpie skiphops across the yard, blown backwards one step for every three forward until he...

12
Jan
2007

AND THEN WHAT HAPPENED?

This morning the winds were high and wild and it was pouring down rain. Buckets. Sometime in the middle of the afternoon the sun came out for a bit. I saw the light from my office window, very briefly. I went into my boss’ office at 5 p.m. and said, “I can’t take it anymore. I quit…for this week.” And she laughed, and I laughed, and then I left. By then it was pitch black and raining again. The winds have picked up. Anders brought home sushi for dinner and I brought home 3 videos to watch this weekend, because...

11
Jan
2007

TEMPUS FUGIT

10 years ago today I arrived in Sweden. Anders had gone ahead of me, arriving on New Year’s Day since he had to start work, and I was still at my parent’s house helping my mom deal with the aftermath of my dad’s death 2 weeks earlier. We went straight from the airport to the hospital to greet the arrival of his sister’s newborn baby, who celebrated his 10th birthday yesterday. 10 years! I didn’t know it would be that long. I have lived abroad for 16 years of my life now. 3 years ago I wrote a post that...

09
Jan
2007

GEEK ALERT

Eye update: totally normal today. Stupid eyes, with the freaking me out. They’re playing meyendgames with me, I just know it. I don’t watch TV much, if ever, nowadays, but when I was a kid I did. I have very fond memories of Ultraman and H.R. Pufnstuf and The Muppet Show and The Smothers Brothers, among others. I watched Land of the Lost (ssss! sleestacks!), Lost in Space, The Electric Company and Sesame Street and Zoom, and I was totally in love with Michael Landon and Bill Bixby. And I am totally dating myself with this paragraph, aren’t I? Hrm....

08
Jan
2007

EYE EYE SEE SEE YOU YOU

Today, my eyes have been acting up. Boy, have they ever. I have had double and blurry vision all day, for no discernible reason. It was so bad at work that I could actually feel that I was giving myself epicanthic folds and cheek aches because I was squinting so hard at the screen in order to be able to work. Ad deadlines, so I couldn’t shirk, you see. After lunch, when it still hadn’t improved, I called the healthcare help line and put the wheels in motion for an appointment at the clinic to investigate this (it’s happened before...

07
Jan
2007

GIVE US THIS DAY

I wasn’t planning on posting anything tonight but I seem to be on a roll, and rather than lose the impetus of destiny, I’ll just charge ahead and see what comes up. Heh. I have no idea what that means. Forward, ho! If I WAS on a roll, it would be a cinnamon one, and not the pearl-sugar-dusted dry but cinnamony Swedish kind, chastely nestled in its round of paper. Oh no, my roll would be a double-thick squishy one, packed-with-cinnamon, slathered with white oozy icing, that sinks beneath your teeth and makes them ache with the sweetness in the...

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