Tagged: thisisjusttosay

Darkening days, rainy & grey, a most-welcome burst of sunshine at the end of the week…suddenly it’s been a handful since I’ve posted, a week, more. Time flows like a snapping ribbon, winding me along with it and even during the dragging moments it moves as fast as I blink. Blink! Another one gone. Each day a precious snapshot of time now past that wasn’t captured or appreciated nearly as much as I would have liked. I sleep a more solid sleep when Anders is gone: I’m not half-awake for hours waiting for him to come to bed and I...

Blah. That’s how I feel.

I’ve had terrible insomnia this go-round with Anders gone. Haven’t been able to fall asleep, keep hearing noises, can’t get comfortable. I usually read until I’m tired and ready to turn out the light, but then I just lie there. And lie there. And lie there. Well, tossing and turning, not really just lying there. How boring. 3 nights in a row so far, and I really hope that’s an out. The sun has been shining for what feels like a week, even though it probably hasn’t actually been that many days. It fills me up and makes my toes...

My best and oldest friend’s son died yesterday. Just over 20 and gone. She called me today to tell me and I was so shocked and horrified I barely knew what to say to her. She told me a story once, when I was visiting them, and he was still a child, about how she had given him a hug and he had said to her, “Mommy, when you hug me, hearts fly around my head!” I can’t imagine what she’s going through. I can’t imagine anything that will help her or ease the pain or make any difference to...