Tagged: littlemisssunshine

15
Mar
2010

WINNING FOR LOSERS

The kids and I bought the first season of Glee on DVD on Friday night and it consists of 13 episodes and we have already watched 9 of them. Way to ration ourselves, eh? It’s been a really long time since I’ve gotten hooked on a TV show like this. I don’t think Mythbusters and Dirty Jobs count, exactly. They’re not the same kind of show. We missed the showing of the season on Swedish TV (which runs about 6 months behind the States) except for the last couple of episodes. I think the last TV show I was hooked...

08
Feb
2010

PUTTING THE BLAH IN BLAHG

I have a really hard time writing here when I’m feeling down. I want my journal to be a place of positivity and light, not a drudge through dreary blahness, and when I’m not feeling the motivation or the mood, it’s really hard for me to kick myself over to the blog and make my fingers do some walking. I know that rainbows don’t have to shoot out of my eyeballs or ponies prance by in order for what I am thinking and feeling and writing to be of interest to SOMEONE (Hi Mom!) but I keep thinking that way,...

21
Jan
2010

GRUMPBUCKET

Have you ever actually rubbed a cat the wrong way? It feels kind of cool, not exactly smooth, but not exactly rough to your hand. The cat will only tolerate it for a moment or so before making her displeasure known. I suspect it must feel sort of what it feels like to take your hair down from an updo or ponytail that’s been in place all day: your skin kind of feels stretched weirdly for a little while. Anyway, being rubbed the wrong way is unpleasant. Rubbing someone else the wrong way is also unpleasant. I feel like I’ve...

30
Oct
2009

DOWN & UP

Is anyone else boggled by the fact that tomorrow is the last day of October? Already it feels as dark in the early evenings as if it were January, and we are still 2 months away from the equinox. What an down and up day this was…what down and up WEEK, for that matter. At the beginning of it, one of my colleagues, another American who is also a friend, sent out an email to all the Americans in our department, asking if we would be interested in helping to organize a Thanksgiving dinner for our entire department. There are...

26
Oct
2009

VICIOUS CYCLE

I can’t seem to stop eating. I don’t know if it’s for comfort or just a general bear-like impulse to bulk up the winter stores before hibernation, thanks to the descending darkness and general gloom of the season. It’s hard to get out of bed in the mornings. It’s hard not to go back to it when the sun never shows it’s face and it rains for 3 days straight. It’s relatively warm or all this rain would be snow. Anyway, I can’t seem to stop. I hate when I get like this; it feels like it takes a gargantuan...

22
Oct
2009

I SHOULDN’T HAVE TO TELL YOU

Why, when we want something to change in the way someone else behaves, are we often too cautious or afraid of hurting their feelings, that we never actually do anything about it, when doing so would give us such relief and so often make things better? I often think that people should be able to READ MY MIND because I am thinking so fiercely at them. It happens a lot when I get a massage. You can practically see the steam rising off my head, I am thinking so hard and so concentrated: NO! NOT THERE, OVER THERE! NO! THERE!!...

03
Jun
2009

FRUSTRATIONS & FRAGMENTARY FEELINGS

I get so aggravated by being slowed up when I’m working fast. Especially by things outside of my control like a constantly crashing computer. I want to be able to move quickly and do quickly and think quickly, preferably at several things at once and not being able to do it smoothly makes me crazy. I can do quick so well when things go smoothly. Something else that drives me crazy is having to do things over or make revisions to something I’ve already finished because someone else changes their mind or misses something or forgets something. It’s human nature,...

10
May
2009

IN SEARCH OF A MIRACLE

All day the sun shone in a blue sky and the smell of lilacs was intoxicating. They’ve burst into multi-colored firework-blossom bombs of purple and white and lavender beauty. The chestnut trees have candled and the bright multi-hued greens of spring are evening out into that solid summer wall of verdant emerald. I can’t reconcile myself to the fact that a friend is dying.

23
Feb
2009

DUCK & COVER

My rilly rilly good mood of 2 days ago seems to be evaporating. Fizzling out. Going slowly up in smoke. You have been warned.

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