Tagged: beinglizardek

20
Jul
2025

RECHARGED, RELAXED, RECREATIONAL, AND REARRANGED

When you wake up at 5:30 am and can’t get back to sleep, so you get up and play iPad games, and read, and stare out the window at the brightening day and the honeysuckles twining their way up and around the trellis, it seems like a waste not to get moving and get things done. It’s my last day of sick leave/vacation, and I have pretty much laid waste to my entire summer to-do list and then some, over the past 3 weeks, so there wasn’t much ON my list for today. I’ve even spent time organizing and cleaning...

15
Jul
2025

THREE THINGS

I was looking for journal prompts, but thought: O! I can write a list. That is always fun, because I love lists. I wrote “So, without further ado” to precede writing a three things list, but then I had to stop and google the word “ado”. We don’t use it enough! It’s such a handy word! Did you know that it can mean all of these things? Bustle and commotion, unnecessary trouble, delay or fuss; or worry and excitement. That’s a lot of weight for a little 3-letter word to carry. So, without further ado: three things! Three things still...

12
Jul
2025

TIDY HOME, TIDY MIND

Having a clean and tidy house is really important to me. It appeases my OCD and it’s satisfying, and it makes me happy to be able to look around me and admire the NICENESS and cleanliness of my own home. Even when I was a kid, I liked tidying up the mess my room often became, just for the satisfaction of it. I liked rearranging my room as well, because every time I did, it became NEW and was satisfying for a long time. One of the things that I used to cajole my siblings into doing when we were...

10
Jul
2025

SOMNUM OCULIS MEIS NON VIDI*

I used to be able to sleep so long in the mornings. Of course I’d stay up late, most often, as well, but I was a champion sleeper-in-er. I could easily sleep until 11, or even later. I was still a teenager, basically, well into my adulthood. Even when I had young children who got up early, sleeping in was my best reward and best treat. So, I don’t know if it’s years of getting up for work by 7 am or just aging, but I can’t sleep in anymore. I guess if you count not setting an alarm and...

09
Jul
2025

HUMDRUM DATES AND PLACES

My entire sick leave/vacation has filled up with appointments, lunches, dinners, and other events. There is something scheduled for every day of the calendar next week! And I still have to wash all the curtains! haha! It’s nice to fill my days with fun things to do. I’m even going to Copenhagen next week TWICE. On Monday, Anders and I are meeting one of my second cousins and his wife for lunch, and on Wednesday, Camilla and I are going to the Gauguin/Degas exhibits at the Glyptoteket. We’re having dinner with Barbara and Paul on Thursday, and Saturday is a...

06
Jul
2025

TO-DO BEE DO BE DO

Waking up super early has one advantage, though I could wish it was not the case since I’m HOME AND DON’T HAVE TO GET UP. Because I can’t get back to sleep, I figure I might as well get up and moving and shower and eat breakfast so I can start doing whatever it is I have on my to-do list for the day. You might think that I shouldn’t HAVE a to-do list while I’m on sick leave/vacation, but have you met me? I live for to-do lists. And oh my god, I’m getting so many things done right...

05
Jul
2025

THINGS COULD BE DIFFERENT AROUND HERE

Yesterday was the 4th of July, but I have never felt less patriotic in my life. Not even when Trump was President the first time. Not even when George W. Bush or Reagan was President. The only thing stopping me from renouncing my citizenship right now is knowing that more than half the country didn’t vote for him and is as angry, frustrated, and overwhelming boggled as me. How have we gone down so far so fast? WHY is there such a need in so many men in power to put hatred, cruelty, and power above everything else decent? I...

03
Jul
2025

DOING NOTHING AND EVERYTHING

I’ve felt a little stupid about some of the medical terms that have been flying around me for the last 2 months, and part of that has had to do with the differences in Swedish and English, and part of it was not having really thought about the differences in terms. I’ve felt that the words ‘inflammation’ and ‘infection’ seemed to be used rather interchangeably, but when I mentioned that to my doctor, he said, “Not by the medical establishment. They mean completely different things.” So I finally looked up their definitions, and like, duh, of course they are different,...

28
Jun
2025

DOING ALL THE THINGS, EXCEPT SLEEPING

Since I was in the hospital, I’ve been having trouble sleeping. Or rather, getting back to sleep after I wake up in the middle of the wee hours or middle of the night. I’ve woken at 3, 4, 5, and one particularly bad night at 2:30 am. I have to get up to go to the bathroom, and when I get back to bed, I cannot fall asleep again, no matter what I try. A few nights I manage to doze off after a couple of hours only to be awakened again to go to the bathroom. UGH. I read...

18
Jun
2025

DIAGNOSIS

I don’t know if you have ever had a medical procedure in which a camera is inserted into your body when you are awake and aware, but it is a VERY weird thing to see. I had another colonoscopy today. The last one was in October, and even though there was a screen where I could see the camera movement then as well, it was awkwardly placed and would have required me twisting my neck weirdly and because a colonoscopy is both uncomfortable and slightly painful, I mostly didn’t try to look last time, but kept my eyes closed and...

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