Category: general

07
Nov
2020

STEPS IN A FORWARD DIRECTION

In the interest of trying to be more present in this space, here I am. Writing to myself, about myself. Wondering if anyone is reading this; and wondering if I care what the answer is. I’ve distanced myself on social media platforms, seldom commenting, and reducing my sphere of interaction rather drastically over the past several years…am I in place where I’m comfortable now, or is it time to start reaching out again? The thing is, it’s a two-way street, isn’t it? If I reach out, will anyone answer? Isn’t writing here a form of reaching out in and of...

04
Nov
2020

GANGING AFT AGLEY

What are you looking forward to? Today, I had some things pulled out of my anticipation bag and I’m feeling very sad about it. My birthday present tickets to see Funny Girl at the Malmö Opera were just rescinded as they will only allow the first 50 ticket buyers entrance, and we weren’t in that group. They’re offering us a gift certificate for the ticket prices instead of reimbursement. We can pay 100 kronor (just over $11) to livestream it the evening we were supposed to go. And we had an extra AWC board meeting tonight and during the discussion...

03
Nov
2020

WOKE

Distracting myself is a good excuse for writing here, no? It’s election night and for over a week my FB and Instagram feeds have been filled with images of people with masks and I voted stickers, and the word VOTE spelled out in flowers, paper, paint, rocks, you name it. I have permission from my boss to “come in” late to work tomorrow in the event that I stay up super late…which is kind of stupid, considering the time difference and the fact that we probably won’t know who has won before tomorrow at the EARLIEST. People keep asking me...

02
Nov
2020

THREE THINGS, MORE OR LESS

Things I need to STOP doing Doomscrolling Snacking Worrying about things I can’t control Things I need to START doing Being creative at home Spending quality time outside Portion control Things I need to CONTINUE doing Walking every day, no excuses Reading good books Showing the people I love that I love them Things I need to do MORE of Calling my mom, my sister, my brother, my son Spending time with my daughter Appreciating what I have Things I need to do LESS of Writing posts in my head instead of here Playing iPad games Taking too much on...

01
Nov
2020

ON AND OFF AGAIN

I didn’t set out on purpose to take a month-long break from writing here, but halfway though the month, even though I was constantly thinking about writing something, I sort of gave up and went with the flow. I suppose I still felt like I had nothing much to write about, even though that is precisely what writing here is FOR: random thoughts. But this past year, as for everyone, has really taken its toll, and that’s despite everything in my life being FINE. I am fine. We’re fine. Everything here is fine. But I still feel tired, fatigued, exhausted....

27
Sep
2020

ROLLER COASTER

I had a bad week last week, feeling very down about a few too many things that are out of my control. Friday night I had plans to have dinner with my two best friends… just after lunch it started raining and it POURED for hours. Bucketing down. We stood at the window of our 7th floor office and watched raindrops fly UP and over the parapet as if it were a reverse waterfall. I had to go to the store and post office after work and driving was a nightmare: limited visibility despite the whipping wipers, huge standing patches...

17
Sep
2020

INHALE THE FUTURE, EXHALE THE PAST

I write a lot of posts in my head, apparently. And then I’m surprised when I finally get around to looking at LJ and none of them are there. Where is my thought-transfer writing apparatus? It’s over there with the matter transmitter that no one has bothered to build me yet. Damn it. Get busy, matter-transmitter-builders! What are you WAITING for?? If there was a matter transmitter, I wonder if it would be as expensive as flying. I would hope it wouldn’t take as long. And that I wouldn’t need to worry about getting COVID-19 while I was in transit....

29
Aug
2020

DOWN TO 2, UP TO 7

We’re officially a 2-person household again as Karin is in the process of moving out from under her parent’s roof and into another (temporary) apartment with a friend, this time in Malmö. Since she is working at Flyinge school, which is literally less than a 5-minute walk from our door, and will have to pay an alarmingly high amount in rent each month, plus deal with parking there, when she could continue to live here for free, I am a bit boggled by her choice, but she’s young and cool and ready to be on her own. And since she...

12
Aug
2020

I DID THIS AND THIS AND THIS AND THIS

I woke up with a headache and haven’t been able to shake it all day, despite drinking lots of water, sitting with the neck massager and taking ibuprofin. It’s still there, behind my eyes and at the base of my skull. Gah. It’s been a very productive week; in fact, it’s been a very productive 3 weeks (technically of vacation, but since I have worked almost every day I’ll have to tell my boss I only actually took two weeks). I had quite a long to-do list when I started and I nearly doubled it during the course of vacation....

02
Aug
2020

WHAT TO DO

Ermagerd, it’s already August. How time flies when you’re… oh, never mind. Time isn’t flying, actually. It’s moving, at least. All the things that I usually look forward to about the fall and the holidays feel very far away and unattainable right now. Everything is still canceled. Things are still closed. We’re not seeing friends or going to parties. I don’t know if anyone is planning on hosting a crayfish party this year, but even if they were, I’m not sure we’d go. We have no info about Karin’s starting university in a…month? some weeks? We have no date and...

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