Author: lizardek

05
May
2005

OF COURSE, OF COURSE

I used to be all about the being busy. I thrived on it, it was a buzz; oil in my motor. Then, just to carry a motor metaphor to an utterly complete crashing halt since what I know about motors would fitbetweenthesewords, I ran the engine on no gas and parts started smoking. Friction! Gears grinding to a halt, crunch, squeak, squeeeeeeeeeeal. But my job keeps me buzzing, so I’m having to learn how to slow down around and outside of it. Even when I don’t have any scheduled plans, however, like today, it still seems to be my modus...

04
May
2005

YOU DON’T DROWN BY FALLING IN THE WATER

Today was a half day of work, but I ended up staying until 2 because I was trying to get as much done as possible due to having tomorrow OFF. woot! Sleeping in, here I come! Anders took Friday off, but I have so much to do still (with no end in sight 🙂 that I didn’t feel it was an option. Tomorrow is “Christ Flew Up to Heaven Day” as literally translated from the Swedish KristihimmelfĂ€rdsdagen.* One of the reasons that I sometimes think about dropping out of choir, aside from the fact that it’s a weekly-plus commitment is...

03
May
2005

SPOUT

It seems like just yesterday the fields were barely blushing, flushed with the beginnings of green. Suddenly, today, after a week of rain and drizzle, it’s so LUSH. Our lawn is full of clover and the grass is a cushiony carpet. All the greens of spring are unfolding faster than thought. You look away and suddenly the chestnut leaves are little dancing skirts. You look back and the forsythia is on fire. Bird cherries are already white clouds floating among the greenery. Every year, it’s the same, and yet every year it’s all so NEW. *** What is sacred? How...

02
May
2005

HACK ATTACK

I was supposed to have no plans tonight but… I thought I’d update my journal header and that led to… my playing around with the new layout a nice person gave me ages ago and that meant… hours of doodling and tweaking code on LJ which has left me with… not much left of the evening and a half-assed finished journal layout. Happy Birthday Wishes to albatrossity!

01
May
2005

O JOY! THAT IN OUR EMBERS IS SOMETHING THAT DOTH LIVE

Yesterday, I was sitting on the sofa for a few moments, reading a chapter in a new and, so far, excellent book, when something caught my eye outside in the yard. At first I thought it was a dog, but it was a hare, a gigantic rabbit, much bigger than a cat, that went lolloping by, its ears perched forward and its impossibly long feet flashing white. We’ve seen him before; he uses our yards, both front and back, as regular shortcuts on his daily bunny commute. Later, driving to Mats’ and Annelott’s home for the yearly Walpurgis Eve bonfire...

29
Apr
2005

CHOP-PINNAR

I’ve never really paid that much attention to the mentions of PCOS I’ve heard some friends talking about, as it was always tied to infertility, and since I have 2 healthy children and had no problem getting pregnant, I never looked it up to see what it was. After reading about thesidhe‘s experiences today, I had a DOH moment, and think I’m going to have to inquire further about some suspicions that have suddenly been raised. We had no plans tonight, or rather the ones we did have were cancelled, which equals out to the same thing. I have things...

28
Apr
2005

LOVELIST

Things I’m Thankful For Today: My ability to not drive off the road despite the fact that my attention is way too much on the greening leaves and not on what I’m doing A husband that automatically lifts his hands to rub my shoulders for a moment if I stand in front of him and turn around, even if he rolls his eyes first 2 children that do not have headlice, that clear their dishes wipe their placemats and push their chairs in after meals, that give good hugs Airplanes that deliver my loved ones safely home My menstrual flow...

27
Apr
2005

MOONSHINE

You’re right, I can’t quit choir. Even after a hellacious half-week that has no apparent end in sight, and having to literally FORCE myself out the door and into the car, once I got there, it was worth it. New song: The Moon Waltz. *swoon* It’s so gorgeously dreamy it makes me tear up when we’re singing it. Tag min hand i din hand, tag mig med till sagans land, dĂ€r skall jag gĂ„ med dig i Ă€lvadans trĂ„nande i mĂ„nens glans I ditt sovande slott lĂ„t mig dricka himmels blĂ„tt tills dess jag vet din ljuva hemlighet lĂ€r mig...

26
Apr
2005

SWAMPED

Work is crazy busy. I work so hard and concentrate so hard all day long, go go go that I come home completely wiped out. I am behind on everything. My house is dirty. I am tired and cranky and probably PMS’ing. I can’t get caught up, and I am feeling sorry for myself and not doing a very good job of snapping out of it. Despite all my attempts to cut down, cut back, say no, my calendar seems to be more full than ever. I’m considering dropping out of choir because it’s a weekly commitment. I’m already trying...

24
Apr
2005

WHIRLIGIGS

Mom and John are leaving in the morning. I feel like the last few days have been exactly like one of the roller coaster rides at Tivoli, which is where we were yesterday. I love Copenhagen in the spring! We headed over early on the train and got into Denmark about 10:30 a.m. The sun was shining in a blue, blue sky, but it was pretty chilly regardless. Anders and Martin had a Scout activity to attend so they met up with us later. Karin, Mom, John and I strolled out of the train station, crossed the street and went...

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