I keep meaning to post, but never getting around to it. Either I’m too busy or too tired or too distracted or too lazy. I’ve finished all the Christmas shopping, and this week am wrapping presents, both for Christmas and for Martin and Theo’s birthdays. I have about 3 more left, and then have bags and bags of stocking stuffers to wrap. I went a little overboard, I think…those bags are HEAVY. I’ve finished all the shopping for my first family as well, though I’m going to a Swedish julmarknad on December 13th anyway. We’ll see if there’s anything fun there. It’s at a (former) cloister not too far away from Flyinge, set in the woods near a lake.
This week Anders is in Tingsryd and I actually don’t have anything on the calendar any evening this week, for a wonder. Every weekend evening is packed, though, and we’re having our family Christmas next Monday. And then it’s only a week until we fly to the States. I’m both looking forward to it, and not. I’m sad and upset about my mom’s decline and worried about my sister’s mental health, since she’s the primary caregiver right now and is dealing with SO much, and lots of it to do with mom. Mom’s house finally sold so Sarah is dealing with all that entails as well: realtor, inspections, bank, etc. My mom’s basically breaking even, but just barely. But better that it’s done and gone than still being a financial burden now that she’s no longer living in it.
Work is ridiculously stressful right now. Everyone is coming last minute asking for things to be done “before the end of the year” not thinking about the fact that the end of the year is NOW. Not in 2 weeks, not in 3 weeks, NOW. I keep wanting to punch people. So far I have restrained myself, but it’s been a near thing and I am completely out of fucks to give so have already had to vent to my boss, nearly snapped someone’s head off in a meeting, and found myself bursting into tears on the way home yesterday and literally bawling for 5 minutes WHILE DRIVING which meant I couldn’t see a damn thing until I got myself back under control. UGH.
The only way I am staying sane is by mindlessly playing word games, doing crosswords, reading, and sleeping (in 1-2 hour bursts).
Off to wrap more presents. More later, if I’m not too busy or too tired or too distracted or too lazy.
Mood: borderline
Music: Retrofile—Feeling Blue