I just got called an old fart. I sent out birthday invitations and nearly all of the responses I’ve gotten back have made jeering or jokey remarks about my age. It’s making me want to call off the party. I wasn’t sure I even wanted to HAVE a party but I sort of felt like I SHOULD have a party because that’s what you do in Sweden, and, I guess, most places, when you have a big birthday to make you feel old celebrate. I don’t want to turn 40. I’m not looking forward to it. It really bothers me. I confess that I’m having a harder time with this birthday than with any birthday ever and the jokes don’t really help.
Hopefully, once I’m past it, my age won’t be a big deal anymore, to me or to anyone else.
argh