8 years.<\/p>\n
I wonder if somewhere deep down inside myself I knew when I stepped on that plane that I might never be coming “home” again, at least not to live. I don’t remember thinking about it, really, other than being excited about going back at last. It had been a dream of mine for 14 years to return to Europe, and finally it was coming true.<\/p>\n
It’s not that I have anything against moving back to the States, it’s just that I feel I belong here. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED Chicago and love it still and miss it like crazy, but I know that if I moved back there it wouldn’t be the same. I wouldn’t be single, 20-something, in my first real job. I LOVE Michigan, too, but I just don’t think I want to live and work in America, at least not right now. The thought of leaving this house, for one, makes my throat tight.<\/p>\n
Anders and I have always said we would like to move somewhere ELSE…somewhere where both of us can be “the foreigner” at the same time. Somewhere else in Europe perhaps (Holland! In a heartbeat), or Australia, or Canada. But we both think we would come back to Sweden and our home after a couple of years on an expat contract. And the stretch is getting longer and longer on the “indefinitely” answer I give when people ask how long I’m planning to live in Sweden.<\/p>\n
Part of me really wants to give my kids the flexibility, the viewpoints, the adventure that moving around gave me as a child. Part of me wants to give them a place to escape from and a place to come home to.<\/p>\n
I remember my dad, when he retired from the military say he was never moving again…he was through. Of course, he DID move. It’s in the blood, I think. But I’ve moved 30 times in my life. I think that ought to hold me for a long while. 8 years I’ve been here, slowly growing roots, gaining a network, making friends, putting down the kind of layers that make me feel like this is home.<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
I received an email today from Company T…the position that I interviewed for and had sewn up before turning it down because it was a project job, is officially open again as a permanent position, and they’re taking external applications. She hopes I’m interested and will call her. I’m just starting to feel that things are escalating and getting good at Axis. I don’t think I want to jeopardize that. I don’t know what I want to do or what I want to say or how I should respond.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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