{"id":1121,"date":"2006-03-18T14:16:00","date_gmt":"2006-03-18T20:16:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/2006\/03\/18\/if-the-sun-dont-know-aint-nobody-knows\/"},"modified":"2022-07-05T14:48:09","modified_gmt":"2022-07-05T12:48:09","slug":"if-the-sun-dont-know-aint-nobody-knows","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/2006\/03\/18\/if-the-sun-dont-know-aint-nobody-knows\/","title":{"rendered":"IF THE SUN DON&#8217;T KNOW, AIN&#8217;T NOBODY KNOWS"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>How do you live in a head that&#8217;s divided? I used to know who I was, I used to step firmly, moving forward, arms swinging freely. There might have been obstacles in my path but they were of no moment. I passed them easily, dodging blithely, skipping past, taking them in stride.<\/p>\n<p>That person that I was, she&#8217;s still there somewhere inside, but she stumbles now, hands forward to feel the way, patting each obstacle thoroughly, wondering if the best way past is over or under or around. <\/p>\n<p>I stand with empty hands, with empty mind. Everything has already been given and used up and required. There&#8217;s nothing more where it came from, for the moment, although the belief that the well is deep and refilling is still strong. The only way is through.<\/p>\n<p>Inch-wide hoarfrost greeted me from every surface when I awoke this morning. I thought it had snowed again and felt that bifurcated ache of beauty and despair. The sky is a blinding white; it might still snow before it&#8217;s over, though the temperatures hover above freezing. All the indoor plants are leaning toward the windows, yearning for the sun. I&#8217;m leaning too, the pull is irresistible. I&#8217;m hoping the sun can show me the way back to myself. <\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/68869_original.jpg\" width=500 border=0 height=375 align=\"Middle\"><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/68806_original.jpg\" width=500 border=0 height=375 align=\"Middle\"><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/07\/69309_original.jpg\" width=500 border=0 height=375 align=\"Middle\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>How do you live in a head that&#8217;s divided? I used to know who I was, I used to step firmly, moving forward, arms swinging freely. There might have been obstacles in my path but they were of no moment. I passed them easily, dodging blithely, skipping past, taking them in stride. That person that I was, she&#8217;s still there somewhere inside, but she stumbles now, hands forward to feel the way, patting each obstacle thoroughly, wondering if the best way past is over or under or around. I stand with empty hands, with empty mind. Everything has already been&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[4,7],"class_list":["post-1121","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general","tag-beinglizardek","tag-obiterphotos"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1121","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1121"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1121\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7523,"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1121\/revisions\/7523"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1121"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1121"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/lizardek.com\/blog\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1121"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}